Depression, regret, relapse

I feel absolutely awful. I've been here so many times before, and I just don't know what to do. I feel like such a failure. I keep replaying all the mistakes I've made and all the cruel things people have said to me. I feel sick physically as well. My brain it seems has shut down. It's like I've lost a connection to life. I can't motivate myself to do anything.

The thoughts just keep going around and around in my head.

This started on Monday. I have been here so many times before-- but not this bad in months. I have a diagnosis of Bipolar II, but only struggle with depression now. I take Lamictal.

Any advice?

Sorry to hear things are so bad right now all I can say is that I can relate to a lot of what you're going through and I hope things get better.

I wasn't familiar with bipolar II -- it kind of sounds like me, although as of recently I identify myself most strongly with Borderline (no professional diagnosis though).

Anyways, about all I can do is offer a virtual *hug*. Know at least that you aren't alone in your suffering, and that it will pass