Hey,
I'm new here, Just created an account to see if I can get some help making decisions.
I'm depressed. I assume everyone here understands the symptoms; and I have most. Thoughts of suicide are a daily occurrence, but I doubt I would be able to act on it. Instead of trying to explain what I'm going through, I'll try to keep it simple. I've taken multiple "internet tests" that all provide strong feedback that I may have severe depression, and should get a professional assessment.
This may be the biggest decision so far in my life... I'm a 20 year old guy, Just out of college, and returning for a second program in the fall. I graduated from police foundations, have worked for two security companies; anywhere from hospitals to events, and am currently employed as a loss prevention investigator. I am a volunteer child sexual abuse facilitator, and the president of a committee that addresses bullying.
My second program is a degree in criminal justice.
As you can probably tell, I have the goal of becoming a police officer, and I've had this goal since highschool. I have based all of my decisions around this career goal.
I really want to get help, but If I do, I will get a huge 'blackmark' on my profile pretty much destroying any hope of my dream job.
I can only assume this would make things worse.
Anyways, I guess I'll wrap it up, and see what some other peoples' opinions are.
Thank you for reading.