My mother called me a monster.

I understand Jouneyz! Just make the best of your situation then, I hope everyone around you will work with that instead of against it:) Have fun with your relatives, try not to demand too much of yourself and allow yourself to take some rest and say no when you feel your limits are nearing. I sometimes excuse myself with a headache

Yeah, punching things isn't exactly a good way to get the anger out. But if you're punching something like a pillow or something else where you can't hurt yourself, it works better. Sometimes it isn't very satisfying for some reason, though. By the way, Journeyz, I hope that you'll do fine at your relatives'!

I tend to do the same thing at times, Yokker. Sometimes when I want to stop listening to stressful things, I'll play my music really loud or I'll go to bed.

Thanks guys. Doing better this past week or so.
Visiting my cousins went well, thankfully they're self centered so I didn't have to answer many questions lol. Managed to start running again which is helping. Hopefully my knee will hold out this time.

Hope you're both doing good

That's great to hear about how you're doing. The part about your cousins kind of made me laugh a little bit though I know what it's like. I'm getting into walking and it helps me a little bit though it slightly tires me out. But I'm fine with it because I know that I'm getting into shape though I'm already pretty healthy. Thank you.

Good to hear your visit went well enough It's nice to not always have to answer difficult questions or talk about ourselves all the time, so in that case it's good to be around self-centered people .

Good that you're running, I had a knee injury as well, got it from wanting to run too much and too fast. So take it easy even though it feels like you're going too slow. Maybe find a good running schedule?

I took up running again like a month and a half ago, got bitten by a dog and had to get a tetanus-shot. The side-effects caused me to feel too sick to run, and my immunesystem got really low, so now i've got one virus after another making me feel too weak to run again.

Maybe I'll just stick to walking for a while like you Aeli.

Yokker wrote:I took up running again like a month and a half ago, got bitten by a dog and had to get a tetanus-shot. The side-effects caused me to feel too sick to run, and my immunesystem got really low, so now i've got one virus after another making me feel too weak to run again.

I hope you feel well enough to run again soon. Having to wait out illness whilst losing fitness is such a piss take, really sucks :/
Hope you gave the dog a good kick up the arse!

Aeli wrote:I'm getting into walking and it helps me a little bit though it slightly tires me out. But I'm fine with it because I know that I'm getting into shape though I'm already pretty healthy.

Glad you've found something you enjoy, I know how hard it can be to stay motivated. Well done

Yokker wrote:I took up running again like a month and a half ago, got bitten by a dog and had to get a tetanus-shot. The side-effects caused me to feel too sick to run, and my immunesystem got really low, so now i've got one virus after another making me feel too weak to run again.

Maybe I'll just stick to walking for a while like you Aeli.

I hope you feel well enough to get into running again soon. I'm sorry to hear about what happened to you in terms of the dog attack. That must have been horrible. Like Journeyz said, it really sucks to wait out illness while losing fitness. And I think that it could be a substitute for running until you're feeling better.

Journeyz wrote:Glad you've found something you enjoy, I know how hard it can be to stay motivated. Well done

Thank you. I'll try to stay motivated. It really means a lot.

Walking is a good way to get in shape actually, but I go cycling as well.

It was a stray dog that was recently found by a shelter, some volunteers were walking the dog but ofcourse didn't know what the dog was like around runners. Some dogs get bitey or nippy when something goes past them fast. But I gave the volunteers a good earfull the be more carefull though!
Luckily it was a small bite, but because it broke the skin I had to get the shot. And I think that shot is still responsible for my low immune system because it caused me to get one virus after another. I'll just wait it out, I'm taking a multivitamin and some other additives like chia-seeds and flaxseeds. Also to help my hairgrowth, it's falling out . Some days I really feel like a mess just because of how I feel physically.

I know I will get better again though, we have to keep our chin up. Hope you guys are doing well!

I might get into cycling as well, someday.

I see. I remember taking a walk with my grandmother and we heard some dogs inside a fence on the other side of the road we were walking down. It kind of scared me because I had actually been chased by dogs in the past before. Luckily they weren't able to get out and I've never been able to get bit by one before. I'm so sorry to hear about everything that has/is happening to you right now because of everything.

Thank you, Yokker. I hope you're doing good as well~

I generally make some sort of noise if I'm approaching a dog,like clearing my throat loudly or something just so i don't fly past them and panic them. Of course this only works if the dog has good hearing lol. I used to love cycling also but this past 3 years I've just had no motivation for it.

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I was fighting a losing battle yesterday. After counselling my mood dropped considerably and i ended up having no motivation to do my 4pm run. I was then frustrated at myself for not going running so my mood dropped further. By about 9pm i finally had a window of opportunity where i wanted to go, so i grasped it and got prepared etc. I did stretches and the usual 6min warm up walk and was doing ok for the first 7 mins of the run. After that i started to feel off form both physically and mentally. I felt sick from drinking too much water followed by a ten minute stitch which kept getting worse.
So by this stage i was royally pissed off as i had to keep slowing to a walk, this then made me angry at myself because i didn't feel like i was doing well enough. I then took a wrong turn and ended up adding another 1km to my run. so by the time i finished i was completely wrecked and my weak knee is pretty sore again today. Either way i played that situation would have ended in me putting myself down. My all or nothing attitude really sucks.

I've also had a less than fun day today, survived by anti deps, diazepam and a tad of Magners . I ordered a repeat prescription for my anti deps yesterday so it would be ready for today at about 3. My parents had made plans to go out to dinner with family (I was told to come with them). The table was booked for 7pm and the journey was about 90 mins. So i'm thinking if i pick up my meds at 3pm that's fine, loads of time...but no one told me we were leaving at 1pm to spend the day there. I can't go off my meds for 2+ days (as the health center isn't open at weekends) so i said i'd follow them up a few hours later,of course mum had to make it difficult and starts criticizing me for not re-ordering them earlier. Wrecked my mood for the whole day. My counselor wants me to think more positively about things and acknowledge and reinforce positive things I've been able to do, no matter how small, but when all the people around me emphasis the negative and criticize me, i'm beginning to think changing my thinking style will be an even longer process than it would be already.

Sorry I've barely talked to anyone all day cus of my mood so i'm venting here lol.
Hope you guys have some nice plans for the weekend