Can anyone give me some advice?

A doctor I went told me to look for a therapist about a problem I have, but I need to wait until they call me and I don’t know how long it will take, it’s been two months. I was diagnosed with depression almost 10 years ago and went to therapy many times, took some meds and tried to get better doing some activities, but this year I finally gave up, I don’t feel a can do anything anymore, now I’m only sleeping and reading to distract myself, but my family keeps acting like nothing is happening, they are asking me some stuff I can’t do. I heard before that depression can affect us like this, they ask me stuff but I can never get it or remember it, this only make me more anxious. Anxiety/agoraphobia/social phobia are some issues I had before depression.

I tried to kill myself a few times this year exactly because I can’t do some simple stuff they ask me anymore, I can't stand they fighting and I don't have any hope of living normally. I don’t know if this is related to depression or a personality disorder that another therapist suspected I have, but I can’t stand being around people, everything is being too triggering.
I need some advice in what I should do while I can’t go to therapy again. I don't want to talk to my family anymore, and I’m also worried this time therapy will be useless like the other times…
I was being able to disguise it better because I took anti-depressants I found here but now they are over and my head is so messy.

Thanks for reading this all and sorry I vented a little...

hi, sorry your going through such a tough time. yea depression very much can make it hard to do things and be around people, as well as the anxiety. what helped me with my depression was dialectic behavioral therapy. ideally its best to do this stuff under the guidance of a therapist, but since your currently waiting for one, if you click this site *mod edit* then click DBT lessons, and you'll see four categories right under them.

another site here, *mod edit*

for instance you'll see mindfulness, where you take a more observer perspective and acknowledge what emotion your feeling and where in the body you feel it. this can lessen the impact of the emotion but its also difficult to do until you get more practice at it (again, a therapist helps too). but some other mindfulness things include paying more attention to the details of your surroundings using all your senses, or being aware of your breathing going in and out your body.

another one i find helpful is opposite to emotion action where you basically do the opposite of what you feel like doing. so if your feeling pain and finding hard to do things, try to get moving and active. be easy on yourself too, even if its for 5 seconds anything can be good. or if your feeling anger or fear, focus on moving slowly.

hope you get the help you need and everything goes well...

Thank you very much for your comment and the links!