I've got work this and next week?

It's the first time I've been in a working environment for months, I'll be meeting new people for some cleaning jobs. I feel so god damn depressed and nothing feels good nothing, I really don't know what to do. I've got anxiety that I'm sure will just kick off socially. I don't feel one bit like making small talk, I mean the breaks are going to be awful, I might even start smoking again if it means giving me some pleasure and something to look forward to.

I've got no interest in anything, I don't want to be rejected from anything socially though, I've got to just put my head down when I get there but I know it's going to be real hard. I scared to how my emotions are going to respond, if I get headaches and just how I'll be responded too in social situations.

I need some tips and advice from you guys please. I take zoloft 100mg daily and no therapist or anyone professionally for support.

JDW wrote:It's the first time I've been in a working environment for months, I'll be meeting new people for some cleaning jobs. I feel so god damn depressed and nothing feels good nothing, I really don't know what to do. I've got anxiety that I'm sure will just kick off socially. I don't feel one bit like making small talk, I mean the breaks are going to be awful, I might even start smoking again if it means giving me some pleasure and something to look forward to.

I've got no interest in anything, I don't want to be rejected from anything socially though, I've got to just put my head down when I get there but I know it's going to be real hard. I scared to how my emotions are going to respond, if I get headaches and just how I'll be responded too in social situations.

I need some tips and advice from you guys please. I take zoloft 100mg daily and no therapist or anyone professionally for support.

JDW, I'm currently not working due to depression and anxiety and the thought of returning - even after being off for over 6 months - scares the Hell out of me. So I know how you feel. It sounds to me like you have social anxiety. It also sounds like the Zoloft is doing little for your anxiety. How long have you been on it for? Have you noticed any improvements? If you feel the medication isn't of benefit to you then go back to your doctor and ask to try something else. You don't want to spend the next few days and weeks suffering. It sounds like you could do with some therapy too - talking to someone who isn't emotionally-involved and can offer a non-biased view. Someone who can give you advice on how to deal with these horrible thoughts, feelings and emotions. Don't put it off in the hope that it'll go away - seek help if you feel you really need it ASAP.

DAM, i know how you feel. I'm in a clinic atm (not like you) however they have me doing volunteer work in order to overcome the exact kinds of things your feeling, and i DO smoke before and after my work. I try to make excuses not to go and have skipped it a few times, when i'm there i don't feel like grounded in my feet and i feel uncomfortable and the room looks strange because i'm so anxious. Everyone tells me the same thing..... that you have to keep practicing to get better. I get so freakin mad when they say this over and over again cus i don't think it will change..... but...... deep down i know there right, it's a way that will make it change for the better. From my experience my advice is go to work if you can just to have something to do that's a bit social and while doing that look for options that will help with this. THeres all kinds of medications, therapies (talking therapy for me doesnt really help to much) and even things like ECT and TMS and theres more. Just hold on and keep searching and keep taking small risks, you gotta get that willpower back to beat it, i lost all of my willpower and aggressiveness towards things going through deppression and i know getting those back will be important.