Still not "better".

I'm really tired of battling depression. I've been in DBT for a year now, and am aware of how to use all the skills I've learned. For about nine months, I've been on medication - 100mg Zoloft, 150mg Wellbutrin BID, and 1mg Ativan PRN (which I don't use often at all). It's helped, but I still feel simply awful. Empty, anxious, paranoid. What makes it all the worse is that I *shouldn't* feel this way; I've got everything, I really do. I'm so blessed, yet these feelings persist.

I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist about all this when I see him in the next month because something has got to change. I just want to know that I'm not all alone in this.

I'm afraid I don't really have any helpful advice to offer. I just wanted you to know that you're not alone in all of this.

I too have been battling depression for many years. I think in some ways it is perhaps easier if you can point to something and say "I lost my job, that's why I feel like this". The pain is still the same pain, but at least there is a tangible reason for it. And perhaps the hope that once I find a new, better job all will be well again.

The trouble is depression doesn't always work that way. You could have all the money in the world and it still wouldn't change the way you feel.

It's good that you have help and the best person to talk to about all of this is of course your doctors. I hope they are able to help you find a way through all of this.