Law of Attraction causing real problems?

A couple of years ago I first heard about Esther and Jerry Hicks who talk a load of rubbish. Esther says she is possessed by other beings who talk through her and tell her wisdom, the answers to everything. They've sold millions of books and do world tours and speeches for millions of dollars. I've read a few of their books, I became obsessed with them because at the time I was desperate for an over-night cure, I was so socially anxious and I felt this was the answer to it. It wasn't.

Their theory works around Law of Attraction and it's similar to the Secret I believe but I won't read that.

So Law of Attraction is real, it's pretty obvious to me whether that's because I'm not thinking right or because I see real evidence of it. Now I don't want to talk about the stuff that I feel has really got me down, so there might be some stuff now that if you don't want to carry on reading then stop now.

I must've spent like 3 solid months of trying to change my thoughts and walking round constantly thinking about what "feeling" and what "mood" I'm in. When I'm speaking to people, everyday reading more of their poison, you know it's probably not exactly made for people who have mental illnesses and obsessive tendencies so perhaps these success stories, which there are loads are genuine and people really do benefit.

To try to get to the point of this post, which is for your help and advice really. The past year has really hit me hard with all this. I'm not blaming it for my depression but I'm putting a lot of blame on it. It's like now I've got to be in these certain "moods" and i've got to be in certain "thoughts" in order to achieve whatever I want. If I want to ask somebody do they want a coffee then unless i'm in the right "feeling" then they won't accept so a lot of the time i don't even ask anymore because i don't want to come across as being bad because of my bad energies.

All this energies, it's in my head all the time, it's like I "know" when people are looking and when they're not. When people are thinking positively about me and when their not. I see it on TV, films and just general interactions where as before life was spontaneous and how people reacted was entirely down to how they're day was going. Thing were exciting and i still believe I can get back to normal and in that mindset. Its just going to be so difficult for me to do that.

I hope this is all making sense, it's all this crap I've been fed by their books about how you need to think up all these thoughts to get in the right "mood" to get the right energies and it's like crucial to have it all the time.

It's left me as a over-thinking emotionless bore. It really has effected me past year, it's like my automatic thinking is all about what my energy is, what my thoughts are and just no motivation at all. Fear to leave the house when i'm not at that right feeling, the positive feeling. I can no longer text family or people, i've been avoiding stuff like that, even on forums like these because ive got it in my head that it's completely pointless unless i've got the right energy and people will react negatively or take something the wrong way.

I really need some help and advice, it's what i really wanted to get across to my therapist but i never really got the chance nor could i explain it very well in person. Now I don't even see her anymore so all i got is this forum so really need advice on this particular problem.

The Law of Attraction is not real.

Just thought I'd point that out.

Your problems are due to things in the world that affect you directly. In order to fix problems, you have to address that which affects you directly, i e, get rid of the source of the problem.

New Age-ish "happy thoughts" philosophy is only there to distract you from actually solving your problems in a practical way. The Secret and other Law of Attraction type deals are shallow offers when problems need to be solved with deep ones.