I am angry at my therapist, want to stop therapy.

To sum up the situation I am a 24 years old woman who's been struggling for quite some time with depression revolving around issues of self esteem, failure, lack of friends and other personal relationships and shame.

I started seeing a therapist over 6 months ago, I felt slightly better though it was fleeting. But lately I had become really angry at the end of each session, anger turned towards other and that was just looking for the opportunity to burst.

My last session with my therapist ended rather badly because I took some suggestion she made the wrong way. I went to see her again, apologized for having been rather angry to which she explained that she had quite provoked me so it was understandable.. then as I proceeded to explain to her why I was angry and why I thought her suggestion was inappropriate and that my main issue wouldn't be solved by such a decision, she just acted as if she was still right. Basically she implied there was some 'issue' because I had never worked, she joked that I was "a teenager" because I was getting a bit defensive, and when I told her I felt misunderstood, she simply brushed it off and said that it was certainly me who didn't understand everything.

I left the session more angry and ashamed than ever. I felt awful and even had suicidal thoughts coming back. I am amazed at the fact that she insists on telling me what to do with my life, that she would use words like teenager or have me prove to her that I am 'an adult' when that is a highly sensitive subject to me.

I honestly don't want to go back and continue therapy with her. I just want to stop it right away. I've been thinking for some days about what this whole thing is bringing me and realized it is not efficient at all. It helps me understand and find acceptance but when it comes to solution to my sense of shame that is keeping me lonely, it was useless.
I also don't want to keep doing therapy with her because I feel she judges me and I can't trust her especially after what's been said.

I am sorry as this is long but I would really appreciate other people's input.

Thank you

I believe you should be able to trust your therapist 100%. After all, you are supposed to share your most personal and intimate thoughts, feelings, events from the past. How can you do it with someone that makes you feel misunderstood and even suicidal?

While I hope this experience doesn't put you off therapy altogether, it might be time to look for another therapist.

Big hugs -- sorry you had this experience.