Blank mind no feelings

When my depression started I would stutter, not understand what people are saying to me and not be able to hold a conversation due to brain fog. Now it's gotten to the point where I don't feel anything at all, no emotion. I'm not happy, sad, anxious, angry, just nothing ever. Also I seem to have a blank mind 24/7. All I can't do is think about thinking about nothing all day. I pace around for hours with out a single thought or idea of something I would like to do. I've lost interest in everything from tv to music even my favorite foods. I don't know what to do anymore to be honest, it was brain fog for 5 years now it's brain emptiness to the point that I can't conversate with anyone. Why? Because I literally have nothing to say ever. I also don't notice my surroundings or social ques I just stand there staring looking awkward. I will say something to someone then they'll reply, after that is total nothing going on upstairs. I've seem to lost my personality/identity of self as well. I don't remember how I used to be growing up or even in high school personality wise. The depression came out of no where. One minute I was quick witted/smart/funny and them boom! Brain fog, negative thoughts, sleeping for hours on end, social withdrawal, inability to communicate with others. But now it's like I said above, I feel nothing, I notice nothing, I think about nothing all day. No interests, no pleasure just BLANK.

I need to know if this sounds familiar to anyone because it's seems worse than depression. Depression I could deal with but this blankness I cannot. What disorders might this be associated to is what I'm really trying to ask. I'll take anyone's idea of what this might be even far out there ones.

If this sounds like a disorder you know of besides depression please let me know I can't live like this.

Thanks.

Hi jaydeewill,

are you medicated for your depression?

If you are, the medication is not chosen correctly. Please contact your doctor and inform them about this. You are not supposed to feel like this.

If you aren't... truth is this is how my depression became pretty quickly. I spent a year from first symptoms to asking medical help, and last months were just like you describe. Sylvia Plath called her book "The Bell Jar" and this was just how I felt: as if I was under foggy glass. No smells, muffled sounds, no taste, no enjoyment from anything I liked before. And in a way this was worse than despair. At least when I was sad or desperate I felt SOMETHING. But this was... like having turned into some sort of grey slimy thing inside my head. I spent a lot of time lying on the floor and staring at the ceiling, not even because I was hating myself or being upset, just... because what's the point in sitting or standing up. Or in fact anything at all.

I don't know whether others had this experience but I definitely felt this was Depression Stage II and I am extremely glad I went to a psychiatrist and got help. I wouldn't be around if I waited much longer.

Hiya,

this sounds like ''anhedonia''.. literally the inability to gain enjoyment from anything..


There are many disorders that it could be associated with but if you're diagnosed with depression then that fits just as well as anything else could do..


I used to suffer from this myself.. I either felt way too much or nothing at all - couldn't win.



Do you have anything at all that could have started this off..? family death, pet running away.. girlfriend/boyfriend finishing with you.. no matter how small a thing that you haven't linked in with it.
Sometimes it can be the tiniest thing that you'd never imagine would be the final straw..

even a tv breaking down is enough to make a person with too much on their plate fall into the void.

Please list meds and dosage.

Can be depression but can also be side effects from medication, so please tell us what you are taking, if anything.

I had that when I was on Lexapro. Switched meds and it went away. It's also very common for people with bipolar who are on mood stabilizers.

Hey jaydeewill,

How's it going? It's been a while since you've posted this. I just wanted to let you know that i'm going through the exact same thing too. 5 years of this brain fog and I'm still stuck in it. I've gotten to a point where I want to grow but I don't know how. I've lost my spark, and i have no more taste for life. Nothing feels particularly distinct, i don't even get angry anymore, and that's kinda scary. I don't know how to connect with people, and i go through the exact same thing when trying to talk to people. nothing goes on upstairs lol.. i'm just going through the motions of life but not experiencing it. i've been going through a major social withdrawal and i feel more disconnected then ever. Life seems kinda hopeless.. you know?
So i wanted to ask, did you even figure out a way to help/cope with this issue? I mean, i've only recently learned that one of the best things to help is really to focus on the people you love.. feeling gratitude for doing something for the ones you love feels.. good. but that's pretty much it.. it just feels good, never really happy or excited.. it's just all so mellow.
so, if you have found some ways around this, please do share looking forward to your reply. and KEEP GOING!! life is worth living, we just haven't figured out the best way for ourselves yet, but you're not alone!
'sending positive vibes over' <3