Can't find enjoyment in anything anymore.

To start, I'm just an 18 year old trying to live life, but I rarely find enjoyment in anything anymore.
All of my days consist of sitting around infront of a computer, watching videos on YouTube, rarely going out, and only interacting with people over the internet. I also play Video Games as a hobby.
But I haven't been feeling satisfied for a while, with anything.
I recently was playing a game called Brutal Doom (Which, if you know that mod, you know how crazy and exciting it is) The thing is, I never felt a spark of excitement at all, I just found I was a zombie, sitting there, pressing keys on the keyboard, while watching the game.
Now that I think about it, this made me think about other things, and I realize I rarely get excited by anything anymore. I hang out with some male friends I have, rarely feel exciting, interesting, or fun.
I've lost my attraction to girls, I go to school every day, come back up, and just sit on the computer for the rest of the day, this happens to me every day, the weekends, I spent the entire weekends in the house, on the computer, again.
I have no motivation to do good in school anymore, nothing.
I find myself worrying too much. (My most recent worry was if I was gay, and that lasted for about 4 months before I got over it, I'm still straight.) This is how I lived my life for 18 years. Out of 6 of those 18 years (12-18ish) I watched porn daily, and I'm trying to quit that right now.
I don't want to lose my passion for gaming, or my life, I want to be able to feel again. Hopefully to the point where I can actually enjoy my life again.

Sounds like you've been feeling pretty down. Losing interest in things you used to find pleasure in is definitely a symptom of depression. The good news is there is a lot of super effective strategies to improve your mood and start to feel enjoyment again. Behavioral activation or cognitive behavioral therapy can be super helpful. Have you ever seen a therapist? Sounds like you have a lot of passion and motivation to get back to feeling the way you used to. But it's a lot to do to pull yourself out of depression, quit porn etc. all on your own. Can be helpful to have some support. I know from experience therapy can be helpful.
Thanks for reaching out. You will get back to a place where you can enjoy life again, even if it takes a while. Stay positive.

Were you addicted to porn? If so that kind of addiction can make coming back to normal life boring.

KevinG31 wrote:Were you addicted to porn? If so that kind of addiction can make coming back to normal life boring.

I think I am addicted, I just don't feel it