What did I do, and why

For what ever reason last eve I decided to pick up a knife and put a few cut marks (scratch) on the side of my wrist. I didn't want to kill my self, only cut. I had this feeling to do this, but only until I saw blood, just a line not a spurt. I didn't cut hard enough to see blood but today I have 3 visable scratch marks on my wrist. My husband saw the marks and wondered about them. I told him it was just a scratch.

Why did I do this? Will it happen again, the feeling? Today I just feel bad that I did it and wonder why.

Well there could be a couple of reasons. People cut for different things.

Some people cut because
1. they feel that the physical pain mask's the emotional pain.

2. it makes them feel like they are in control.

3. they like to see the blood because it is like the pain is leaving from your body.

I think there are a couple of other's but I cant think of them right now.

The feeling of cutting may happen again, but you should try your hardest to resist the urge. It would be best to try to stop early because it WILL become an uncontrolable addiction that is very hard to quit. I hope that thing's work out for you and you are able to control this. It is hard to live with.

Take care,
Kayty