Man wanted; appearance and age doesn't matter.

I just want one person to love me. I want one person to want me, to care about me and to praise the things I do. I want someone to applaud my artwork without criticism, I was someone to actually care about me. I want a little attention, or maybe a lot, but is that a bad thing?
I want my parents to not be so busy that they don't even tell me goodbye until the very last second. I want someone to MAKE me do my schoolwork, to MAKE me get up early, to MAKE me have a social life. I want someone to HATE the man that killed me.
I want a lot of things. I'm so, so alone even when people love me. They love me, yeah, but why can't they SHOW it? I'm falling deeper and deeper into this empty place where I just won't need anyone and I'll just push everyone away... There will be a wall so strong and tall, no one can climb it and no one can penetrate it. I'll be alone in presence as well as in mind.
I want someone to pick me up, and tell me that I'm not a bad person. To tell me that I am not like those men. To tell me that I'm not worthless, that I'm not a piece of $#%^ and that I matter. I want kindness.
I need to be loved.

I need someone to hold me tight and promise that I'm okay, that everything will be okay and this will pass. I need someone to brush my hair gently, and give me a bath and hug me and read to me at night until I fall asleep. To dry me with a warm, fuzzy towel, and play blocks with me and sing to me.
I need someone to keep the scary monsters away, because I know they're out there. I need someone to tell me what I can and can't watch, what I can and can't do because I'm making really, really bad choices in my life and I need help.
I need someone to realize all this without me having to say so. I need someone to know me well enough to know that I am jaded and hurting. That I am broken and lost, and hurting, so, so badly in ways that I can't fix.
I need someone to care. I need someone to build me up from the start of my brokenness. I need to go back, mentally, and I need someone to take the role that I never had. The tender, loving, caring person that can be everything I hoped for.

I don't need to be punished... I don't need to be fussed at, I promise I've had enough of that in my life. I don't need yelling, or to be grounded or told that I'm not worthy of love and kindness anymore, because I messed up.
I need to be loved, and I need someone to prove to me that not all touches hurt, and that not everyone will hurt me. I need someone that will ask me why I'm sad, and keep asking, and when I cry and say that I don't know, I need someone that will hold me and kiss away my tears and tell me it's okay to feel.
I need someone that won't judge the bad thoughts that I have, because I hate them too, okay? I need someone that can be my authority without being harsh, that can encourage me to do the best thing because they love me- that's all it would take. I need someone that can be my lover without leaving me or hurting me when I can't say “No.” because I don't know how.
I need someone that can stay up late with me when I can't sleep and just talk. I'm not a child, even if sometimes, I need to be one. I'm mature, I'm growing up and I'm intelligent. I need to have real-life conversations about real-life things, not just the picture I colored, not just the cute things I like.

I need these things, but I have no idea where to find them. Where do I find someone like this? Where do I find someone that can help me? I don't need saving, I just need help.

What would happen for you after you found this person you're seeking?
How would it help, or change you?
If you got everything you listed in your post, what would you do after?

Also...what do you draw?