alone...

Thanks Kayty!!!!

Your very welcome Hun!!

Kayty

Drama queen,

I can understand your need for understanding. I am still struggling with that. I have just come to the realization that nobody can truly understand what I am going through except myself. People can try and understand. But, even those who have been through similar situations that I have, can not completely understand. This at times can be frustrating. But, surrounding yourself with family and friends that want to understand and want to be there for you helps.

I too was hospitalized when I was 20. I have great people who support me, but they still do not fully comprehend what I am going through. I have just come to the conclusion that support and caring is just as good. But it does get lonely being "alone" in this. The mind can be a scarey, isolated place. But, even those without mental illnesses feel that way too. You see what I'm getting at? Or am I just rambling?

Well, anyway, my suggestion is to keep those who are not genuine around. And keep a distance from those who are superficial, annoying, self centered and shallow. You may find that not many people out there are really genuine. This is why I really appreciate those who are. In this case, quality is more important than quantity. You are a great person drama, very talented too. I have no doubt in my mind that you will find people who are going to be there for you and vice versa. Stay true to yourself and you will never go wrong. Take care
Amy

Amy,
Thank you so much for your reply, and for sharing some of your own experiences with me- it was very insightful!
You made a great point about no one truly being able to understand what the people around them are going through... You're right that the mind is a scary place and that I am indeed alone, and yet I'm not alone in feeling alone, because everyone does... It's hard to explain, but you weren't rambling at all, and I think I understand what you're saying! =)
I'll try to keep in mind that even though people can't fully understand, their support is just as valuable... It's indeed a concept that I think we all struggle with at some point. I'll do my best to stay true to myself and surround myself with only the people who are truly genuine!
Thanks again for your advice and support- it has helped me more than you know.
Take care,
drama_queen

Hey,


Support, even from those that don't understand, should always be welcomed. Personally, the majority of people that have tried to help me are those that are not depressed and live quite normal lives - They are quite good at taking your mind off things and absorbing some of your pain.


I'm just wondering: Do you like the thoughts of being different from everybody else, or do you even try to be different from them? I have been thinking a lot recently (Bad for the health, I know) and have realised that for the past few years I have willingly aimed to be different from everyone. I have since 'normalised' myself a biut and have become happier.


Kevin.

Hey Kevin,
Thanks for your reply! You're right that any kind of support should be welcomed... I guess I'm sometimes a little too hard on my friends since they don't understand; I'm trying to cut them some slack.
No... I've always felt uncomfortable when I feel a lot different from the people around me (maybe my social phobia has something to do with it). But I know a lot of ppl who were in a similar situation as you; it's definetely important to be able to recognize when you're doing that, so good for you!!! I'm glad that you're feeling happier and more comfortable around others now, because of that realization.
Hope that life's been treating you well, or at least decent! And seriously, all of the advice and support that you've given me means A LOT- if you ever need anything, don't hesitate to pm me- I'd love to return the favor!!!
Take care,
drama_queen

Heya,


Thanks for your message - It has brought a smile to my face right now. It's a drab-looking day here in Dublin so a smile is very welcome



So, you feel uncomfortable when you feel different? I can understand that feeling. If you are different you get more stares from people and that can make a person VERY self-conscious. I won't give-up my whole life to normality just yet though because I like to maintain some difference in myself - I'm still very different in many ways but at least I'm trying to be happier for the first time n years. The suicidal thoughts that I had every day have actually faded and my obsession with food is diminishing.


Oops, people have started arriving into work so I better get back to my tasks. I'm only here for the summer.


Well, take care and have a wondrous day there, wherever you are!

Kevster

Hey Kevin,
I'm glad that the suicidal thoughts have faded and that you're feeling more comfortable around food!!! That's fabulous!!!!!!! I hope that things continue to go uphill for you.
I hope that you have a wondrous day, too!!!
Take care,
<3
drama_queen

Hey ya DQ,

I hope i am finding you well today and don't feel so alone.

I can relate to how you are feeling sometimes, and i can appreciate how horrible it can be.

I don't have much else to say right now, not feeling that great and i guess it has taken me a lot to even post this.

Just sending you hugs.
Take Care

Hey Muffin Head,
Thank you for replying (and for the hugs)!!! It's nice to know that other people can identify with how I feel sometimes. How are you feeling now? I'm sorry that you were feeling down, but I hope that you've felt better since you posted. Hugs right back at ya!
By the way, welcome to the forums! I hope that u can get the support u need here... Lots of compassionare people are here, and I know I'm always reachable through pm.
Take care, and thx again for your reply, it means a lot to me.
drama_queen