I am after some advice. I believe i have some form of depression but not sure what type.
I have quite highs and lows, not manic but mildly so. I have days where i feel invincible and feel so happy and on a high i sometimes ger heart palpitations. But then i get lows, am on one now. Where i just feel, well, nothing. I dont want to talk anyone, i just cant be bothered to do anything. I want to cry, and may even do, for no reason. I feel exhausted and drained but i get 8 hrs sleep a night! My real lows only normally last a few hours, then i take a few hours to get back to normal. When normal i still feel exhausted quite often. I am currently loosing weight and eating healthy, although i sometimes 'binge' when i get cravings for fatty food. Its almost like a dark cloud that comes over me then slowly lifts.
When driving home tonight i find my mind imagining my car crashed and that i am in hospital and wondering what people would think. I dont actually get the urge to crash the car!
I lost my grandma in january and having worked in care previously i am really concerned about death. I worry constantly about friends and family dying and how i will end up before i die.
I get quite angry and snappy very easy. I have a short fuse and can get quite worked up over even little things. I then feel bad for these outbursts as they effect other people. I try to keep my moods to myself but when on a big low like tonight i cant hide it.
Does anyone have idea what type of depression this might be?! Or have any advice if someone has a similar problem.
Thank you.