I didn't know where to put this, hope this is ok.
I can't kill commit suicide because it would destroy my 23yo son and I have several pets that depend on me. But DAMN I want to! I don't want to be here anymore!
A month ago I voluntarily went into a 72 hour psych program, and I'm now on an Cymbalta (AD and for my fibromyalgia), Klonopin (anxiety/panic disorder/PTSD), and Trazadone (sleep). I'm happy with the combo; The Cymbalta has completely eliminated my pain (suffered for at least 20 years now), the klonopin helps me with the PTSD, and the Trazadone helps me sleep FINALLY!!! I've also started weekly therapy. I should be feeling, if not better, at least not worse!!!!!!!!
But I am so done. DONE. All I do is cry anymore.
I am hoping for advice for someone who has been where I am and ...I don't know, just someone who can relate.
Don't worry, I'm NOT going to kill myself, I just WANT TO SO BAD!