Since I posted stuck in the middle

Can I jsut say thank you to all those that sent messages of support.

Since that very first post things have turned worst for me andd my partner and family.

My partner (who was supposed to be out looking for work as he finished his job 2 weeks ago) has not been back since Wednesday. He has been on a major drinking session at my older sister's house.

They have been drinking non stop. I have not seen him at all and I am so angry. My sister has welcomed him in.

So, due to anger, i slit my wrists. I could not take it. I was upset and very very lonely and he just up and left without telling me nothing. I arrived home from work to that.

My friend called around and found me. Though I ws unsuccessful, I am still very angry and husrt. My friend contacted my partner to tell him what had happended and he said that is her problem and hung up. My friend has put his gear outside and told him he is not to come in here.

But he has not shown up at all. We tried to ring him today at my sisters house cause hs family showed up here, adn my sister said to me that I should allow him to drink and that I was stupid for doing what I did. They think I am an idiot.

My younger sister said, don't know why you did that cause you will get back with him anyway?. Nothing is ever enough for my family. they tink the feelings and life I haev been building with this man for the last 6 yrs goes away overnight.

My mother phoend me last night and is disgusted in me and blamed my partner. She said do not go back to him no matter what. So if we end up back together then my family will be arguing with me non stop for taking him back. Back to the middle again.

I want to get better. I want to leave him, distance myself from my famioy until I get on my feet, but that will be so hard.
I will miss coming home to him, argunig with him, his company etc etc...and not to mention the extra pay packet that comes in...which could be the real reason.

How do you move on?. How do you let go of so many family issues?. I am abck to depression and loneliness.....it is so hard....

I will try foor my two little boys, I will try and focus all this energy on our future and success...but it is hard...

Once again, thanks everyone, I am truly glad to still be here and lucky that I have such a good friend who identified the issues with me and came here.....to my friend I love you forever...

Stuck in the middle wrote:Can I jsut say thank you to all those that sent messages of support.

Since that very first post things have turned worst for me andd my partner and family.

My partner (who was supposed to be out looking for work as he finished his job 2 weeks ago) has not been back since Wednesday. He has been on a major drinking session at my older sister's house.

They have been drinking non stop. I have not seen him at all and I am so angry. My sister has welcomed him in.

So, due to anger, i slit my wrists. I could not take it. I was upset and very very lonely and he just up and left without telling me nothing. I arrived home from work to that.

My friend called around and found me. Though I ws unsuccessful, I am still very angry and husrt. My friend contacted my partner to tell him what had happended and he said that is her problem and hung up. My friend has put his gear outside and told him he is not to come in here.

But he has not shown up at all. We tried to ring him today at my sisters house cause hs family showed up here, adn my sister said to me that I should allow him to drink and that I was stupid for doing what I did. They think I am an idiot.

My younger sister said, don't know why you did that cause you will get back with him anyway?. Nothing is ever enough for my family. they tink the feelings and life I haev been building with this man for the last 6 yrs goes away overnight.

My mother phoend me last night and is disgusted in me and blamed my partner. She said do not go back to him no matter what. So if we end up back together then my family will be arguing with me non stop for taking him back. Back to the middle again.

I want to get better. I want to leave him, distance myself from my famioy until I get on my feet, but that will be so hard.
I will miss coming home to him, argunig with him, his company etc etc...and not to mention the extra pay packet that comes in...which could be the real reason.

How do you move on?. How do you let go of so many family issues?. I am abck to depression and loneliness.....it is so hard....

I will try foor my two little boys, I will try and focus all this energy on our future and success...but it is hard...

Once again, thanks everyone, I am truly glad to still be here and lucky that I have such a good friend who identified the issues with me and came here.....to my friend I love you forever...