Dead inside

Hi all,

For quite some time now, the biggest feature of my depression has been emptiness. I feel dead inside. As if my emotions have ceased to exist. Well the positive ones anyway. I no longer feel true happiness, love and contentment. I just feel so empty. Like the emotional/psychological/spiritual aspect of my being has withered away and died. Does anyone feel this? As in CHRONICALLY EMPTY. Daily thoughts about the meaning of life? Feeling like things will never get any better? Not feeling human?

Am I the only one that feels totally detached from what it's like to be human?

Hi London Guy,

Yes. During some of my worse depressions, ahnedonia became a daily struggle. I merely existed.

Yes, I feel this way. I was just thinking today how I'm not sure why I even go through the motions each day when everything I do seems meaningless. I don't look forward to anything, not even some kind of food or a tv show. I don't know if you feel this as well, but even if I'm able to laugh and smile, it doesn't feel genuine to me. It's convincing in the moment and I don't feel like I'm faking it, yet right afterward, it's like it never happened. It's like I constantly revert back to state of complete meaninglessness. I don't know how to describe it exactly, but I seem to be emotionally void, except maybe when it comes to anger.