Sadness

Hi,

I suffered from severe depression last year and have been tapering off it ever since. Along also came extreme anxiety, stress, and panic attacks... but I guess that's expected.

NOW, It wasn't easy, but I've came a long way to get to where I am today:shock: .

The situation right now:
I feel like to SOME degree I am depressed. I mean it wanes back and forth. But right now it has been at a steady longer period of sadness and since I know the symptoms, I would like to call on it before it gets worse.

I feel like the root cause of my depression is my low self-esteem. Understandable right?
Well I've made great improvements over this, I really have.. but now I'm realizing that there are certain things that I can't battle or are under my control.

For example..
1.) LONELINESS - Which is stemming from not being in a relationship. Although I don't necessarily NEED a relationship.. it's just that it does take a toll on my self-esteem because there is no one to boost it.
2.) FRIENDS - I have really great support but I still often feel lonely. Maybe because none of my friends have the same experiences as me, so we're automatically different. BUT i have this BEST FRIEND, who is pretty much dead to me.. like I love her.. but it's got to the point where the friendship is not working and although I want to cut the ties... she pretty much doesn't. I'm basically trapped in the friendship with my bestfriend whom I don't feel like is doing anything for me. And tbh it's too late to make new "best friends" because all my other friends have their own "best friends" etc. IT'S like having a best friend who has an illness and is forever changed..and you have to take care of them for the rest of your life.. like a burden. (JUST AN EXAMPLE).
3.) GAINING WEIGHT - because I'm an emotional eater. FOR INSTANCE, I feel LONELY because of my circumstances.. which then would lead me to overeating, etc. and THE WEIGHT GAIN = lowering self-esteem.

IT'S JUST A BAD CYCLE.......
I'm lonely and as a result of an emotional eater.. I overeat.. and as a result.. I gain weight, and it doesn't help my self esteem.

HOWEVER, I am not that sad about my weight gain.

I am just more sad at the fact that I feel this loneliness everyday.. it's draining. I EVEN hit my goal in terms of school.. and although I was super happy, it didn't last that long! I think that's absolutely crazy. AND THEN I think that I DON'T want to be in a relationship .. but at the same time, it doesn't make this situation better.

I HATE BEING LONELY... I NEED SOME SORT OF GROUP I CAN RELY ON TO TALK TO.. OR I NEED ANYONE'S WORDS OF ADVICE.. JUST ANYTHING... I'M FEELING THE SYMPTOMS. I FEEL like I know my friends/relationship thing isn't really on my control.. so I'm just sad all the time.. I JUST WANT TO TALK TO PEOPLE SO I DON'T FEEL ALONE.

THANKS Y'ALL!

I know how you feel. I have been diagnosed with depression, and I believe I have been suffering from it since early teens(I am 21 now). My wife left me about 3 months ago and that is what sparked me to really seek help. I was so accustomed to having someone with me all the time, its such a huge change, and I feel so lonely. I have great support from my family and friends, but I still can't help but feel this emptiness inside me. I want to have a relationship, but I know at this time it is not good.

I too have very low self esteem and no confidence, I hate how I look and I hate my weight. Along with depression I have anxieties too, and its very hard for me to meet new people.

You are not alone here, there are many of people here who understand what you are going through, and will support and talk to you, including me, so feel free to chat with me if you ever need to, because I understand how you feel.

*Hugs the Pandaa*
I really feel the exact same way. Also an emotional eater but very low self-esteem because of my weight and because of my weight and low self esteem no one wants to date me and I desperately want someone who makes me feel like my life is worthwhile... I don't have any friends - no time to make friends due to work and family keeping me busy on weekends. I have been feeling so lonely this past week The guy I was starting to see even stopped talking to me because of my loneliness so now I am even MORE lonely and depressed. Please, chat to me and maybe we can help each other's loneliness a bit?