Help

I feel trapped inside my own head. I am home from college for the summer and go back to school in 12 days, where I know I will feel better, but until then I am home and alone and I feel awful. I know I should just hang in there for the next 12 days, and I know people will say just go have fun with friends, but though I have a lot at school I have barely any at home. I don't have a car or license and my family is away for the next few days, so I am just sitting in my house feeling awful (over the past few years I have experienced trauma at my house and I feel now that I am living in it all those memories are resurfacing). I could text my boyfriend but I feel guilty because I have spent almost the whole summer with him to try and escape my house and now I figure he deserves some alone time with his friends. I just feel like a burden to everyone and I know I sound probably crazy and I'm rambling, but I just want someone to know how I feel and not tell me I'm dumb for feeling this way, or feel like I am burdening anyone. I'm writing this as a last ditch effort for advice or any suggestions at all, please don't be harsh, it will only hurt.

Is there a library near you? A book store? A place to go to "escape" the real world for a few hours?