please help; am i depressed?

ive been unhappy for 2 years i cnt remember the last time i felt happy. i just feel so alone and i feel everyone hates me and doesnt care about me not even my family. all i could remember about my childhood were the bad things, when my dad used to hit me. i feel hopeless and cant talk to anyone caus i feel like they wont care.

ive cut myself and thought of suicide a lot of times. i did overdose myself once and passed out. i get overtly sad over little things. ive beeen having trouble sleeping lately. i do feel ok some days just enough to get me throught the day, get out of bed and go out but after when im alone in my room i get really sad. i isolate myself from others. i lost interest in some things i liked to do i do feel like im not my usual self before all this. please help idk if im just sad or depressed.

i did go see a counsellor at university but she said i judt have very low self esteem. i didnt go see her for a following checkup cause i was too depressed to go anywhere that time. she didnt email me or anything afterwards. what triggered me to write here even tho i dont have the energy to is cause i got myself into a car accident just now and my dad is pissed at me and told me it smy fault and i deserved it. he told me im selfish and uneducated thats why i dont know how to use a car. after he said all those mean things he told me i just sat down and cried for hours and stayed still frm night till morning.

Hi.

That sounds awfull and this counsillour sounds terribule i advise seeing a doctor and if they don't help see a different one, i find the helpfullness of psych proffessionals vary's greatly.

I agree with winter. That does not sound like a helpful therapist whatsoever. Find a doctor, another therapist, any mental health professional. Your situation is one that a lot of people have gone through, and come out okay on the other end. Try not to fully isolate yourself. Perhaps you could talk to people you trust about how you're feeling (although if they don't listen or care it can be hurtful, so I advise you to talk to a mental health professional because they're meant to listen and not be judgemental and help you). I can't diagnose you with depression of any sort because I can't diagnose anyone with anything. It does sound like you might have depression, though, considering a lot of the stuff you mentioned goes neatly with the symptoms of depression - lack of interest in things you once liked or do like, can't remember the last time you felt happy, isolating yourself, negative self-evaluation, remembrances of negative childhood events, trouble sleeping. Even low self-esteem can be a symptom. I'm no mental health person though, so the most I can say is that you might have depression but I can't really make a definitive assessment. See a doctor or mental health professional.