mini mid-life crisis

It's upsetting at the moment.. I'm having a real downward period. I have been friends with these people for about 5 or more years now, and I just feel like they don't relate to me or like me. One of my "so called" friends, he's always pissed off at what I say, and always takes what I say the wrong way. It hurts, because I feel as though I have to walk on egg shells around him. The other friend, he keeps quiet and says nothing, although I don't think he'd really care whether I was around or not. I don't know how many years I have left in me, but I just feel like I'm withering away here with no purpose.
I just want some good company, that's all.

Last time we stopped talking, I was determined to go on without being their friends, but this time, I just need a break from them. I think it's time for me to go on and find my own life.

I am in a job that I really do not like, and I'm waiting to get back into study in July, which will make me happy. I just want to do something about it as soon as possible or die.

I know it seems selfish, but I really feel purposeless at the moment.

If you think they are bad friends live them. You get only certain amount of time, why do what you don’t want to do? If you want to talk write a journal or go to forum (if you want more replies try other one, until you find what you are looking for.) Personally if I was you I would read. What ever problem you have or what ever you want to know (from friends), you can get from the best experts from reading. I would leave these “friends” of yours, and do things to improve my self. When you work at yourself, good people will notice you and would want to hang with you. When you like your self, others will too.
Think what can you do to make your life better?