Very little hope left...

I dont see my life changing for the better anytime soon.. i have so many issues going on in my head, and cant even find a relationship. Ive been lonely my whole life. i have bad ocd/anxiety/social phobia.. sometimes i feel better off dead. I hate god a lot too.. i feel ######6 cursed to be a loser. My life is $#%^. and i take medication.

hello??

The thing is, you can't know how your life is going to pan out, and something good may well happen - it might take time, and I know it can be hard to hold on, but things can get better. If you are taking medication, then I assume you are getting treatment from a professional, which is good. Hopefully the medication will have a positive effect soon.