How to carry on

Hi there

Been feeling very down and needed to try an make sense of my head.

What keeps people going?

When you can't see beyond the moment of time you're living in and you feel completely futile where do you get strength from?

Everything in my life has changed from my friendships, my family, my hopes, my dreams, my beliefs, my appearance, my joys, and my wellbeing.

Now is a point of a long downward spiral and each day I feel worse and worse.

Everything has been wasted, and I can't get back the things I've lost.

I know that things will never be the same and that I will always be affected by the past, the present, and the future.

I know my best years are gone, and worst of all wasted.

The people closest to me I have had to cut off.

How can any of this get any easier?

I'm not happy, but where does it say everyone has to be happy?

I don't think I can ever be happy. I can't be happy because there are a lot of things I can't accept, and I cant except them because I am only human.

Its difficult to talk to people.

How can you relate to others when so many times you've been on the edge of nothingness? Words cannot convey the profound despair, emptiness and pain.

Everything is falling around me.

I'm losing this battle, worst of all, it feels as though I have lost the will to fight it.

Hi, i want to try to help you, pm me if you can. Im not sure you can if your a guest, you might be able to but if you register...... it dont take long, i will mail you and we can have a chat if you pm me.
Dont worry, i know what im talking about. I self harmed and still do for a total of six years and depression is a major factor but i still keep going. I dont want to put all my details so public but once you pm me i'll keep in touch.
Take Care
Cat x

Mark,

You brought up some interesting ideas. Depression is about not accepting life as it is for us. Of course, when everything is going our way, it is easy to acccept life. When life does not meet our expectations or our dreams, it can really be hard. We often have really good eyes for seeing all the good that others are raking in, while we are just getting s### sandwiches. Often, what can bring the worse feelings are when people let us down. This should be common because people often change their minds, and we can't control others.

One of the worse thing about my depressions were that I thought the feelings would just go on forever--and perhaps get worse.

Hang in there. Keep posting. You have a lot of deep thoughts.

Good Luck,
Jim S

Hi Mark Velvet, I wish to help you.

There are lots of things that can make people get going, and I bet you have some in your head. You just don’t get to them, because you are stock on the bad topic. Yes, change is very hard, but if it is hard for you to change your thoughts, why not let others do it for you. You could read book that stays on positive, or listen to a tape. You got awareness; you know what you are doing is not good for you, which is good. And, if you take action it will help, regardless of how you feel before it, it will change. It is as exercising in the morning “doesn’t have will to do it” but if you make your self, if you don’t give your self option to not do it, you will feel better.

You got it right, uncapping things/past makes you depressed. You know the problem, and you know how to solve it, but you don’t give your self that opportunity. If you are going to get better, you have to accept. Changes happen and you need to find a way to work with them. You can’t do anything about it, so why torture your self? Whether you are miserable, or fine that doesn’t change things, and doesn’t help anybody. By the way because you are human (meaning humans are not perfect and make mistakes) you should accept that we are not Gods, and every human makes mistakes.

Also, it may that your life wasn’t “wasted” it just that your point of view changed. If you didn’t think it was good idea to do what you you wouldn’t do it. All you can do is do the best that you can right now and what you think is good idea to do now, but if you stock in past you are wasting more on waste. Sometimes realization of waste makes people find something that really maters, so do you have ideas what wouldn’t be waste? No mater were you are you can get more out of your life. Many people found meaning and started living their life ate the end.

Things by themselves won’t change, you have to change them. You have to do what you want to have. If you want friends get back to people whom you caught off.

I hope this helps.