Hi there
Been feeling very down and needed to try an make sense of my head.
What keeps people going?
When you can't see beyond the moment of time you're living in and you feel completely futile where do you get strength from?
Everything in my life has changed from my friendships, my family, my hopes, my dreams, my beliefs, my appearance, my joys, and my wellbeing.
Now is a point of a long downward spiral and each day I feel worse and worse.
Everything has been wasted, and I can't get back the things I've lost.
I know that things will never be the same and that I will always be affected by the past, the present, and the future.
I know my best years are gone, and worst of all wasted.
The people closest to me I have had to cut off.
How can any of this get any easier?
I'm not happy, but where does it say everyone has to be happy?
I don't think I can ever be happy. I can't be happy because there are a lot of things I can't accept, and I cant except them because I am only human.
Its difficult to talk to people.
How can you relate to others when so many times you've been on the edge of nothingness? Words cannot convey the profound despair, emptiness and pain.
Everything is falling around me.
I'm losing this battle, worst of all, it feels as though I have lost the will to fight it.