Everday is exactly the same..

I dont know what else to say. i feel powerless to 'change' things. Its like deja vu everyday.. im just existing. maybe i need a med change, i dont know

Try some new hobbies and new activities. Try to meet new friends. And do talk to your counselors/doctors about medicines if that's what you think could help.

All good advice given above. It's a good idea to avoid stagnation. Try putting yourself into new situations. A med change could be helpful - I don't know though. Although you feel powerless, you are not. Things don't have to repeat themselves over and over. Things can change.