How to rebuild after I destroyed everything that can help.?

Hi, this is going to be long, I beg you to read and help me. My life is empty, I am sixteen I screweed up school and now no longer attend. I lost all my friends good and bad. I am unhealthy. I am always hurting allover. I live in my bedroom 24-7. I do nothing. Also did I mention that I hurt my parents emotionally every day to the point in witch they cry. I would end my life if I wasn't such a narcissist. I really have nearly lost all hope in life because I have failed. I failed my friends, I failed my mother, I failed my self and I failed society. I fear one day that I will become too lucid and simply kill myself. I have destroyed myself and everything around me. I feel as though I have no hope. I no longer thing I have a person to turn to since I hurt everyone around me. Really now I think the internet is the only part of society that exists in witch I haven't destroyed for myself. I want to help myself but I can't. I've tried for my entire life and failed.

I was given anti anxiety meds, they worked for a while but not any more. I feel so bad for my parents, I heard my mom crying once about how she failed me. While really I failed her. Life

You poor dear, I will attempt to help you in the best way I can.

First off, might I suggest that you go for walks when it's cool outside? Those have always helped me when I have felt awful. Getting the fresh air into your lungs can't do any harm to you. If you don't like it, you can always just sit outside for a bit.

Secondly, you should try spending more time with your parents and attempt to have fun with them. Do something you like with them one day and then on another, do something they like. Also, don't be afraid to speak with them. They seem very concerned about you and obviously love you. They are trying their best and seeing you hurting is making them feel useless. It's not your fault, of course. I am just suggesting that you can try to open up to them. I understand if you think it's hard, and I usually never open up to my parents.

Regarding your anti-anxiety medication, why don't you go back to your health care professional and ask for a different type? Or you could tell your parents about them not helping you, and they will probably try to help you as much as possible.

I hope I've helped at all and haven't angered or upset you by rambling. I also hope you feel better dear. We're here to help each other. x