I am new on the forum. I think this is the right forum for this stuff, either way I just have to let it out somewhere. Excuse this for being so long...
There is a girl I have met. I hung out with her and stayed with her for at least 3 days. I have always been really shy and scared to ever make any moves on people and I really wanted to at least lay beside her and so on but I could never have the guts to do so. So then when she dropped me off at a friends house I stayed there for a week. She had said she would at least hang out with me a couple of more times. The entire week went by and I never had the guts to call, except I finally just did it because it was driving me completely crazy, she didnt answer and then she went out of town for another 3 days. I was in some deep stuff while at my friends house, I felt sick to my stomache and I was incredibly depressed. I really wanted to hang out with her and I hoped that she liked me. I don't know if she likes me or not, I might just be paranoid but she hasn't been online all that much and also when I finally did talk to her she didn't seem to be typing the same way as she did before and said nothing about hanging out again.
She is gone again for a few days so I won't be able to really talk to her about how much I really like her, but then again she could just completely hate me and I wouldn't know it and telling her that could just freak her out. I have never felt such feelings for any of the previous people I have been with, but this girl is making me go crazy and I really like her. I can't sleep at night normally anymore without taking PM's and I am so un-easy that I don't know if I want to be left alone or if I want to be with people. Usually music helps me a lot and it does...but not even happy songs are keeping me from crying. Any advice would be great. I feel so alone at this...