Does anyone else get this?

I've had depression since I was 12/13 (I'm now 20, so yeah, long time) and I get the whole "It's just a teenage phase" thing. I wonder what they would be like if I was 30? Anyway, enough about this I want to know if anyone else gets the same multiple symptoms I do when I'm depressed:

- Lack of sleep one night then too much sleep another
- Sleeping for a full 8 hours yet feeling more tired then when I went to bed
- Panic attacks
- Feeling stressed when people are around you especially when they pace back and forth behind you.
- Feeling like you're looking at the world from behind a window (even while engaging with people)
- Your thought process suddenly stopping without you realising (e.g. you're eating dinner and you suddenly stop and stare at a wall with the action of putting food from the plate into your mouth only half completed without you even realising)
- Feeling like your heart is explode from stress and getting a "feeling" of pain without the sensation/feeling the actual pain
- Everything around you "compelling" you to hurt yourself off them despite your constant resistance
- Feeling as if you can move/shift immovable objects (e.g. picking up the road with your bare hands)
- Feeling like a "monster" is looking back at you when you look in the mirror
- Difficulty communicating what you want (e.g. poor sentence construction, constant forgetting of key words in any given sentence)
- Audio/visual hallucinations
- Feeling so stresses and down at the same time that you just "freak out" and start shouting/screaming/insulting at yourself when you're on your own
- Constant compulsion to self harm
- Feelings of not wanting to talk to anyone
- (for Females) skipping every second month of their periods
- Poor attention span (i.e. changing thought process or activity every 1-3 minutes)
- Cooking/cleaning more often to put actions instead of thoughts into the mind
- And of course the depression itself.

Just wondering. Would love to know I'm not the only one out there with these specifics and if it is more scary than it seems.

Please go to a doctor as these symptoms sound as if they're distressing and impacting upon your life. Your doctor can find out what is wrong, and possibly give you an effective treatment to alleviate or even stop these distressing symptoms.

You seem to be describing derealisation and/or depersonalisation ( the hallucinations part). Atleast I have seen some people with those disorders talk about similar things online.

Of course we can't diagnose here, but it might help if you could list your symptoms and take them to the doctor. Also, if you can identify with the symptoms of derealisation, then you need to tell your doctor.

I hope that your doctor can help you. Can you let us know how you get on?