Coming to terms with suicidal finality

javert wrote:Do you think your wife realised that she insulted you?
Why do you think you didn't feel anything in response? Is it because you were already hurting, so it didn't seem to make any difference? (Sometimes I feel like that when things keep going wrong - it's as if one more problem is irrelevant because I already feel defeated.)

I'm pretty sure she knew precisely what she was saying, like she was looking for a reaction or to see me hurt too. I know the defeatist or apathetic feeling well.

It might be worth telling your wife that she insulted you. Even if it didn't make you feel worse, I can't imagine it could help how you both feel about your marriage.

Yeah, having the right time and place to find a way to say this though...

You're welcome. Keep in mind that you can start new topics and post on other forums. Different members will have different insight or opinions - there may be some people here who have had to deal with a similar situation but who don't read the Clinical Depression forum.

Oh, I know that, and I do read elsewhere, thanks. This does feel personal though, and I just wanted to talk about the suicidal realization that I have and that I planned... I really was so close to not posting anything at all. I'm not trying for attention. I'm really good with the idea of privacy; if you don't want the attention of something to get out of control, be careful what you say and where you say it.