Not Sure Where to start... or what to name this thread

Hey everyone, I believe I maybe suffering from:
Major Depression, Derealization, and potentially ADD?

This is going to be pretty long (sorry about that).

Symptoms for Depression:
- Fatigue, very low energy, always tired
- No interest in anything, no desire to do anything
- No interest in leaving the house, no interest in former hobbies
- Difficulty concentrating, remembering, and making decisions.
- Although I feel tired all the time, sometimes I have a hard time falling asleep at night.
- Apathetic?
- Hopeless
- Life feels like it's over
- Been depressed for the past 5 years. Depression is literally killing me in the inside. So far it has ruined my life, completely.

Symptoms for Derealization:
- The world seems unreal... seems like I'm dreaming. I can't really explain this. The world seems... fake.
- I don't believe I have depersonalization, but rather derealization
- Questioning the meaning/purpose of life,
- I feel like I view the Earth as an outsider... I feel as if I'm not human myself (lol... sounds weird.)

Not sure if I have ADD, but if I do (which I'm not sure if I do or not), here are the potential symptoms:
- Poor concentration
- Very impatient
- I always shake my foot when I'm sitting...
- If I do/read something that's very boring, I'll get mad and want to do something else instantly
- Get distracted easily
- Difficulty getting organized
- Everything I do = messy. My computer desk is a mess.
- Difficulty starting a task
- Poor listening skills
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I'll keep this as short as possible. I''m suffering from some type of Depression ever since I was 14. I'm 19, and if anything, this depression is only getting worst (it hasn't gone away). I don't think of the problems I went through when I was a kid... I guess I'm technically depressed for no reason. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to see anyone, talk to anyone, go out anywhere... etc. I always question the meaning of life... and what I'm here. I feel as if I honestly don't belong here. I don't feel like I'm living, I feel like I'm existing if that makes sense. I always worry whether I can get better or not, because this illness I have is out of my control, and is really ruining my life.

Life doesn't seem real. It honestly doesn't. It is so weird that I'm using a keyboard right now, typing this, so other people around the world can read what I'm saying. It's really weird that we have amazing technology (computers, the internet, airplanes, cars) etc. It is unreal. Everything looks dreamy, hazy, etc. I don't know, the world doesn't seem real.

I think my depression is causing derealization... but I'm not sure.

I just feel as if my life is honestly done... like I'm finished. I just miss the old days where everything was exciting, life was great, beautiful and fun.

I feel like as if I'm living in another world, a miserable world. I use to be very passionate about Soccer, I could play Soccer with my friends for 5+ hours and I would enjoy every single second of it. I used to LOVE video games, they were so fun... even if some games were repetitive, you could still have fun and enjoy it.

I don't know why I'm this miserable and depressed, but this is certainly out of my control. There is no desire to do anything.

Just thinking about that life ends for everyone (like everyone dies) is very, very depressing. It truly is.



At this point, I don't know what to think or do anymore. I have to wait 2 months to see a psychiatrist... and who knows if this psychiatrist will be able to help me. I just feel doomed.

I don't know anymore, I truly don't.

Hi, may I suggest you not label yourself with the "MrDepressed" label - that fixes you in that role. You story is good in telling us where you are right now.
If age, money, location, gender, education etc. were not a problem --- If you could be anywhere, and do anything you wanted to do - What would a day in your life look like 10 years from now? This doesn't have to be a perfect answer and you certainly can change it another time. This is just a first-thought. What time do you get up? Where are you living? What does your room look like? What are you wearing? What are you eating? Are you going to work? What does the building look like? Try to fill in as many details as you can until you have a movie in your head of just that one day. I am looking forward to seeing your answer.