Just some of my thoughts and experiences

It seems like a common theme for a lot us that panic attacks lead to DP disorder. I know in the winter months I suffered several attacks, before the onset of DP. I suffered (and still do) from extreme levels of constant anxiety about my personal health. I have for so long felt terminally ill. The doctors never found much other than infectious mononucleosis. Yet months and months later, here I am. Still run down as ever with overwhelming anxiety and fear in the back of my mind.

Physical symptoms

- Left eyelid spasms constantly, everyday.
- Dry eyeballs.
- "Raccoon eyes" that developed early this year. Seems permanent.
- Sensitivity to brightly lit environments, especially artificial lighting
- Dry/peeling skin on hands and fingers.
- Water retention in hands and feet, several times a week.

Psychological symptoms

- Terrifying fear of impending death due to unknown illness.
- Depersonalization, nothing feels real or makes any sense to be real.
- Irritated feeling in my own skin.
- Feel "numb" to sensations of enjoyment.
- Rarely laugh or feel amused.

What I've tried

- Eating healthy
- Exercising
- Vitamin supplements (especially D3)
- Trying to forget all about my problems
- Comprehensive metabolic panel.
- Checked for anemia, diabetes, thyroid, vitamin levels.

Previous diagnosis

- Infectious Mononucleosis caused by Epstein Barr Virus
- Inner-ear infection