Abnormal DD

Ok so i just noticed i've had DD since i was around 15 years old.

This DD puts me in this personality where i'm convinced i'm an outlaw and brag about every damn thing i've ever done.

When this personality gets on i've noticed quite a few people being like "See i told you"

I do not really like this, it's like a demon takes over me and talk instead of me.

But those are actually demons of the past.

Now i'm gonna talk about the other multiple personality i've build and cannot control.

Sometimes i incarnate a terrorist state of mind, where i'm anti-government and talk about kidnapping the prime minister and talk about my relation with arabs. Sometimes it even brings up al quaeda.

Note: I do not plan on doing any of those kind of things it is simply a demon taking over me

Other times i incarnate someone who i greatly admired and got me into boxing, i talk like him and think like him. ( he's an outlaw too so it has a great effect on this )

And when i'm myself, i'm just a normal guy who seems to be dealing with bi-polarity.
But i also have to add, that when i'm socializing with my english personality with people, it's totally different than my french one which is my main language.

It just feels like every worlds are crossing together.

Just a little note also: I've spent my times alone since i was 15. I always refused the help of people to get me out of my inner world.

Now that i'm 18, i would really like to do something about it so my life can start.

But on some days like i said, i become this personality of an outlaw, which makes me want to have the "street life", and this is impairing me from getting a job or going to school.

When i'm connected to a social area and have a job it comes up aswell, which may sometimes lead me to leave my job because i'm convinced i'm going back on the "street".

I also have a lot of times dealing with conversation because i often see sex related message (When a girl talks to me) or personal attacks ( When boys talk to me ) through people speech's.

I am very aware that i snap and get mad at everything, it's one of the reasons i don't have in depths conversation with people.

Gonna say it again, i've been living in my fantasy world since i was 15 years old.
This fantasy world idealize me as an outlaw while i'm actually a guy who stayed home because he was anti-social or just plain crazy starting age 13.

Note: Everytime i meet someone from the past, wether it be between 7-15. They mention my name and "the crazy dude".

Oh and also, i'm terribly affected when i'm in social area, i feel like everyone is talking behind my back and it makes me unsure about who i am between all those personalities, it makes me feel very insecure too.

When i quit my job i gave a 2 weeks notice, but got fired 3 days before it ended.
I was convinced it was staged by my boss in order for me to look like an outlaw to the eyes of people.
So i didn't come back, i could've came back and done it right but like i said, i gave the 2 weeks notice when i was convinced i was going back in the street ( Selling drugs and doing crimes ) but i needed the money of that last 2 weeks because everything was planned for me to enter the street.

I recently met a girl that i used to work with, she did not see my personality before and claimed i was immature, but technically i'm just crazy. She used to think i was bipolar back when she met me.

Or perhaps she didn't mention i was immature, she just mentioned the age of the guys she dates and i was 1 year younger so i took it as offensive and now i think she thinks i'm immature.


Anyways welcome to my life.

So what do you all think about this?

I know i need to see a psychiatrist