Im sick of this feeling why must I suffer?

I hate this feeling. It ruins my life , I dont feel comfortable in my own skin so how am I ment to enjoy anything? This isnt my only problem which just makes things even worse, I have clinical depression and aspergers. Not to mention a severe learning disability. I Have no friends, I cant connect with people very well at all, Iam a decent guy, Nice friendly , ok looking....

But my mind seems to suffer from life, I Cant seem to understand how to enjoy myself. Everyone else seems fine , Going out to work making money , Enjoying themselves with the company of others. Advancing their lives. When iam here, Stuck in a rutt. Ive been stuck since I can remember, Iam 23 now and I got clinicaly depressed at age 16, I Took medication for a year which helped but I am sick of the side effects so I ditched them. I beleive that depersonalization has really made my depression alot worse. Feeling deattached is horrible. I Cant enjoy myself. simple. My mind is scattered and im losing hope. Its a long wait to die of old age and I cant kill myself because I have a loving mother. I just wish I could wake up and feel normal again.

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad right now. Could you ask your doctor to try a different medication? You may get less side effects, or different side effects that don't bother you so much, from a different medication.

You have trouble relating to people so is there any way you can work on that? Are there any local support groups you can join for people with mental health issues? Are there any personal development courses at your local college that you can take to improve your social skills? You might make new friends there too. I know how hard it is to feel anything when you're depersonalized, including feeling any connection with other people. I think all we can do is keep trying. X