Hello, Any Input Greatly Appreciated

DPD isnt a quick fix. I went from October 2009-January 2010 with SEVERE depersonalization, which also caused me to have really bad anxiety and panic attacks. It was a very rough time and scared the hell out of me. I'm still suffering from it but it usually isnt as bad as it was. All of last week i had headaches 24/7 and was literally going crazy. I kept getting suicidal thoughts in my head just so i could stop the headaches. After a week the headaches went away and I've felt a lot better. I still suffer from depersonalization, but it isnt interupting or effecting my days as much as it was. I'm in the same boat your in. I can't really go to a doctor. I could but i have a really busy schedule (full-time student working 30+ hours a week), and i dont want my parents to find out because they worry enough. I would like to go to someone who specializes in dissociative disorders just to talk to them, but like i said im busy and they are expensive. I dont want to be put on any medication because i feel like i need to learn to deal with it myself and taking medication is kinda like a cop-out. Meds to me are just a temporary fix, and i feel like if i can overcome it myself then i wont have to worry about it in the future. With that said, my advice for you would be to read about other peoples experiences with depersonalization, because if you can better understand what is going on, it is easier to help yourself. I see depersonalization as more of a mental awareness then a mental illness and try to see the positive sides of depersonalization and focus more on them than the negative. Everyone's experience with depersonalization is different so its hard to say what will and wont work for you. Just try as many different things as you can and do what you think is best. If you have any questions or want to talk or share experiences im here. Your not the only one who suffers from this, and it's possible to live a normal life with depersonalization.