How about we play a little game

So there's this game I don't really like play but do anyway.

I call it GET UP U GODDAMN VEGETABLE!

It's simple, wait for the depersonalization to kick in real bad, make you sure that you are alone and that there's nothing to disturb you, then drop dead on the floor and try to get up.

It's as funny as it is pitiful to lay there watching yourself being unable to move. I guess I could just get up, but it's like I forgot how to move, and when I realize that I could indeed get to my feet that makes me anxious and I just don't do it. Sometimes it takes over an hour before I finally get on my feet even though I was laying on the cold ceramic floor. I'm not sure why I did get up, but all I know is that I probably didn't do it consciously.

I'm a powerless ghost inside a body.

I've played that game before. It's not a very fun one, especially when your outside in the rain.

One game I like to play during depersonalised periods is 'Let's imagine I am alive and reality is not a dream'. But that prevents me from floating around. Ever seen Ghost Dad, with Bill Cosby? Yeah.