Sorry, another is this DPD?

Do you think this is DPD or some other form of Dissacociative disorder? Or neither?

I feel like I am a puppet on a string and my owner, who controls my strings is way above me up high above the clouds so that I cant see her. I feel like all my actions are out of my control. I feel dead. I feel like I am living in a fake world. I feel like all my surroundings are the set and scenery in a play and I, along with everyone else in this world are the characters. This world does not feel real.

I feel like I can punch my arms through furniture because the furniture is not really there, or if it is it is only made out of cardboard or paper (because it is the scenery of a play). I feel like this whole world is a massive dolls house for a kid and the kid is moving everything around including me.

I do not feel connected to my body. I feel like i do not own it. It makes me very angry that everyone is walking around none the wiser, yet I know that they are all puppets on strings. Sometimes I lose sense of myself so much that I cant move, I panic and I do not have the energy to move my body and I just feel stuck in time, almost like my battery has been turned off.

Can anyone help me and tell me what they think is wrong with me? Thankyou

Hi,

I forgot to say that I also look in the mirror and dont recognise myself. Its not me. I dont belong to the reflection. I see an evil person staring at me, yet I feel I am a beautiful successful person, maybe even a famous person.

Depersonalization is the feeling of detachment. You don't loose time like you would say for dissociative disorders... you just feel detached. It's similar to derealization which a lot of people deal with when they are anxious.

Here's a site that gives you a detailed description of it.

http://www.minddisorders.com/Del-Fi/Dep ... order.html

I do suffer from DPD, and yes, this does sound like DPD to me. It is a very subjective experience that is very hard to explain and to understand, but those of us with the disorder have an ease to recognize it when it is being presented to us, and yes, i do recognize the descriptions of your symptoms as DPD. And butterfly faerie, it is actually not true that you can't ''lose time'' due to DPD. You don't lose time in the same sense as dissociative amnesia obviously, but you do ''lose time'' in the sense that when you suffer from DPD and you begin to observe the outside world, you get some sort of rush, where you realise that you are still part of reality, and you just go like ''woah, this is all real?! i thought i was still dreaming.. how long have i been awake?!''. When you realise how long it has been, you do not understand how that much time could have passed without you being fully aware that you were awake.

Thankyou Zander for your reply.

Lately i have just been feeling very detached from myself. I have gotten so used to it now that it just seems normal to me and i wonder is it really all that bad? I also get like a fuzzyness before my eyes, almost like im wearing glasses/ spectacles that are not good for my eyes and making my vision slightly fuzzy. And i also get a sort of blankness in my head as if there is nothing inside. Its like the real me has gone, gone far away and inside my body iks hollow. Does anyone else feel this way? And what does it mean if anything?

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I do feel the same way, like i said, this really does sound like DPD. If you are asking yourself whether it is even really that much of a problem in the first place, then most likely it isn't one for you (yet). I think you are better at answering that question than anyone else. :/ You can describe your experiences and we can help you find out what they are and where to go for help if you feel you need help, but whether or not your experiences fall into the ''healthy'' or ''ill'' category, we are not as able to give an accurate answer as you are. I'm sure in time the answer will clear itself. What i predict is either things will continue to be the same way they are now, and these symptoms will become a problem for you, or they will go away before they do become problems for you. I am always here if you have any other questions or if you need any help.