No Happy Memories

This has to be one of the more desolate aspects of dissociation, remembering a 'positive' event but not feeling much towards it, such as when friends try to reminisce with you about past experiences; they joyously recall them whilst you feign that you feel the same, even though you really don't

I just had to reply to this because it's so relatable... I recently went on holiday with my friends and I just feel like it was all a dream, I put on this persona and say how much fun I had but really it's all a blur and it wasn't really me, but it was!? I don't even know what I'm feeling I don't know how to describe it!
Do all your memories feel like dreams? Or that it wasn't really you?

Awicinski wrote:Do all your memories feel like dreams? Or that it wasn't really you?

Yes definitely.

Yes, I can concur with your comments. Looking back, I cannot think of happy times, or even what I did for the most part of a few years ago, after the trauma occurred. I always say "its not me", but recently found this diagnosis and now I know I have it. Relieved that there is actually something out there that I am going through, and I can take steps to get better.