I feel like I'm a floating pair of eyeballs, if that makes any sense. Just... separate in an extremely physical way. And I have what I can only describe as brain fog. It feels almost like pressure on my head. And I have difficulty concentrating, to the point that I can't pay attention in class (this did not used to be the case) and I sometimes have difficulty reading. Depersonalization sounds like how I feel, but I don't really know. People describe it as looking at your hands and thinking they aren't real, but that's not really what I experience. Its more like feeling like I'm retreated into myself, somehow, like there's this weird separation between my consciousness/vision and my body. And the world seems duller. But the worst part is the inability to concentrate. It's like daydreaming uncontrollably. I try to focus, but I become focused on focusing and lose track of what's going on. And I do stupid things constantly, like unlocking the house, going inside and closing the door, forgetting to take the key out of the lock.
Does this sound like depersonalization/derealization disorder? I have this sense that it's all in my head, that it's not real. I'm working on setting up an appointment with my college's psyche services, but this sense of uncertainty makes me not want to. And I've read that it's caused by trauma, and associated with anxiety, but I seem to get these symptoms even when I don't feel anxious and have no reason to feel anxious.