Is this DR??

Basically what the title says


I have always suffered from some form of anxiety and OCD throughout the years from childhood, But for some reason for months now things have changed.

I am stuck in 24/7 deja vu all my physical anxiety symptoms and all my other things have seemed to disappear and im stuck with this deja vu.

Let me explain: Basically I keep getting random memories that flash up in my mind, or random memories just appear in my thoughts. Sometimes there is loads a day other days there is not so many. Basically my mind just doesn't shut the hell up its constantly got things in it like music being stuck in my head random songs appearing, random words, made up stories and false memories of things. Everything I do, read,eat,watch,talk too,see etc is like im stuck in some time loop and im reliving life over again.

I had a massive panic attack in October hospital really high heart rate to the point that if i couldn't bring my heart rate down they were going to give me something to bring it down. High temperature ended up with a saline drip in and paracetamol was absolutely terrified. I had a viral infection and because of my anxiety i thought there was something really wrong since then things have been worse than they have ever been . I possibly suffer from BPD aswell i have been told this by the MH team at my local a and e when i went there because i was having a low mood day and couldn't handle the deja vu any more,

Some days like today I am in a ok mood but the deja vu is still present.

I never know what my mood will be

I asked someone on the mind website if they had experienced anything like this and they told me it was some form of dissociation/derelisation.

I used to get moments of deja vu through my whole life. Never thought anything of it. However in may I had really strong deja vu and for some reason i got really panicky about it .

I had a bad experience with smoking what i have now been told was a legal high at the time i thought it was just cannabis in 2008 and something really messed up happened i ended up having a massive panic attack ended up out my body and i was terrified I thought I was dying and I ended up a big mess for a long time... I cant remember if i had constant deja vu then.

Im just looking for some advice thats all.

Hello, I was diagnosed with Depersonalization disorder in May of 2014. If your surroundings are unbearably distorted or the basics of how you see things has changed rapidly into a world that seems completely different from your norm is most likely a good indicatior that you have Derealization disorder. If you have had similar experiences with your personality then it's most likely Depersonalization. Most of the time the two go hand in hand. I have the same experience you are describing and have been for the past 12 months.

A little backstory:
I used to take hallucinogens (2014, 18 years old) quite regularly due to isolation and anti personality traits. Molly was a lot better than classmates! My continued usage of drug experiences led me to an extremely violent panic attack and for roughly 2 weeks after that experience I started getting a new kind of panic attack. One that would make me feel ###$ from the world I was living in. I was basically freaked out by everyone I looked at, every place I was. I didnt really know how to be myself anymore.
After a few months and a change of the way I operate myself things started to get less "harsh". I wasn't in such panic as I previously had been, completely sobered up and living a much more less chaotic life. Once I started to listen to guided meditations my anxiety got a little bit more controllable. Then I realized I have control over the way I see things, it's one of the biggest pieces that I needed to realize everything is okay we just live in outer space and my brain is conditioned with #######4! It's hard to explain but after this I felt supernatural. Meditation is seriously an incredibly useful skill for BPD sufferers, anyone really. Basically, if you destroy your BPD egotistical self because you find that who you REALLY are is so much more beneficial than manipulation. BPD has a big "thought disorder" quality and if you can control your thoughts for the better than youve served your purpose. Life is a lot more interesting when you see things for what they really are and realize it was never "like that" after all. Hope this was of some help... New to forums!

To put it short yes it is, I have the exact same problem you have actually. I am a DPD, and BDP sufferer, and have the what I like to call "second mind" going on all the time as well. Where different voices are going on sometimes, especially at night, and music is going on all the time in this second mind.

So yes it is Derealization, but the bad news is I personally have not been able to get rid of it, I hope you can though!