Hi there, new here.

I'm excited that a site like this exists. For the longest time I have had no clue what was wrong with me until recently.

When I was young I was diagnosed with anxiety/panic attacks, was put on medication pretty quick, but never really felt that it was what I had. As a kid I didn't really know how to describe what I was feeling, and at the time, the only thing I could fathom as how to react to this feeling was throwing myself on the floor and punch and kick as hard as I could to hopefully regain a sense of feeling or self being in me. So naturally the Dr. would ask my mom my symptoms and yeah panic attacks would sound right. so I just went with it. After high school, I finally got rid of the medication, that scary feeling was sort of a thing of the past, though it showed up once and a while, but never to a degree I felt when I was young, so didn't really think much of it. Eventually It was basically gone, didn't think too much of it until about a year ago.

Just another day at my kung fu class, but today that demon showed up again. I had no choice but to say I don't feel good and go sit down. I don't know what it was or where it came from and ever since then my classes have lost their fun, and now it's all about fearing another attack. So now that the internet was around I thought I would do some searching and I found this disorder, and I was just in aw. Every symptom was what I have been feeling but unable to put into words.

Some days were fine some not, but last week I had a bad one, and that is why i skipped class today, due to the fear of having an attack. So I thought I would be productive and search cures, or anything about it really, and then I found this site. I though I would join and make a little intro post for anyone to read. So thanks for reading my jumbled thought bubble, and hope I can learn something here.

I'm glad you've found us, korvas. I hope the forum is helpful and supportive for you. The DD forum is quieter than some other parts. But please do just reply to any threads that you find interesting. Sometimes, everyone's just waiting for someone else to start the conversation.

korvas wrote:I though I would join and make a little intro post for anyone to read. So thanks for reading my jumbled thought bubble, and hope I can learn something here.

One thing you may like to consider is that DPDR is not an error, the brain is designed to work this way. When there is a problem with the ego function of consciousness, those faculties shut down. The body has a similar mechanism: when we are confronted with a life-and-death situation, the non-vital functions of the body stop (like digestion) and all available energy is diverted to the necessary survival systems (like the muscles). When we panic, the brain similarly believes that there is a life-and-death situation happening and all non-vital ego functions are withdrawn (like 3D vision or interpersonal interaction or memory). Just like with the body, the mind's non-vital systems usually come back once the perceived threat has passed. But not always, sometimes they have to be rebuilt (/relearned) and sometimes they stay disabled. What that means for you is to avoid panic, because that tells the non-vital mind functions to shut down, and also to give yourself time to recover when a panic induced shutdown does occur, it takes time for the signals to restart the systems, and it can take even longer (think about babies) to rebuild a system if it doesn't restart on it's own. Good luck!