HELP !

Mirrors on the ceiling mirrors on the wall
these mirrors that show me someone i'm not
That someone is starring at me through the mirror
making my heart shiver

His eyes are cold his face is dead
and then there's someone saying its all in your head
he tries to smile he begs to cry
but his soul has left his body to die
cause what use is a body without a soul its like a man
without any goals

Somebody help i think i'm going crazy my therapist said i have depression and anxiety but when i read about other disorder symptoms it describes me perfectly schozoid , ocd , schizotypal ,DID ,etc pretty much all of them.I figured i could get someone here to tell me whats wrong with me.I feels like i'm living in my dreams i'm at my house most of the time the only time i go out is when i need to see my therapist i keep questioning reality i'm very anxious and paranoid person and i day dream a lot.

Hey tom, hope you're feeling a bit better!

Have you tried talking to your T about these feelings? About what you think it might be? You write very well I like it. I relate to alot of your post . If you have any questions or even just need to vent or talk this is a good place and feel free to!

Welcome to the forums!

i think that my T thinks that i'm just pretending i want to tell her soo much more but she just brushes it off like its nothing to worry about .I have difficult even with remembering thats that happened recently like my visit to my T .

anybody??

Your T shouldn't just be brushing your concerns aside just as thinking you're "pretending", bring it up with her, and if she isn't trusting you and isn't listening it may be a good idea to try to find a new T who will. Whatever is going on, if it is bothering you and affecting you it isn't "nothing" and how you feel should be taken into consideration by your T.
At the same time listen to your T. They are the professional and they have the schooling and knowledge to help find what may be going on. Sometimes it takes a while to find the right T for you...

Good luck, sorry this is so late and a little disjointed

TomPaine wrote:Mirrors on the ceiling mirrors on the wall
these mirrors that show me someone i'm not
That someone is starring at me through the mirror
making my heart shiver

His eyes are cold his face is dead
and then there's someone saying its all in your head
he tries to smile he begs to cry
but his soul has left his body to die
cause what use is a body without a soul its like a man
without any goals

Somebody help i think i'm going crazy my therapist said i have depression and anxiety but when i read about other disorder symptoms it describes me perfectly schozoid , ocd , schizotypal ,DID ,etc pretty much all of them.I figured i could get someone here to tell me whats wrong with me.I feels like i'm living in my dreams i'm at my house most of the time the only time i go out is when i need to see my therapist i keep questioning reality i'm very anxious and paranoid person and i day dream a lot.

You write very well. Nicely done.

You do realize you're in the depersonalization disorder forum, right?

Sounds like you're empty.

Hope the best. These emotions will define you if you let them. In the meantime, use writing as a skill. Find something you're good at and use it. You could start with putting these emotions to use, but like I said, be careful not to let them consume you.

I hope you find what you're looking for....

Tom Paine seems to me you're suffering from peer or family relationship somethings not going right with your friends or family ?

I was also diagnosed with anxiety and depression, and keep thinking my doctors and other professionals I see don't believe or dismiss my symptoms. My therapist is very good however. I also often see resident doctors who fill in for my doctor and some of them are very easy to talk to as they have more time and seem to take me more seriously. One of them explained to me why a previous one may have appeared to think I was imagining things. I didn't realize 'paranoia' was part of this condition, but your post along with my own experience suggests to me that it may be. I hope you get the help you need!