Depersonalization/derealization or ego death, maybe both?

I have DID and have been suffering from depersonalization, it happened last year after a recovered memory and again this year after another one. I came across something called egi death and read about it. I seem to have all the symptoms of this as well. Does anyone know how long this is going to last? Its unbearable. I look in the mirror and not sure if the face i see is really mine, i feel disconnected but at the same time seem to have a heightened perception of reality. I been experiencing rage, sadness, helplessness and despair, pretty much every negative emotion at any given time and sometimes i just feel okay, no happiness. The rage is the hardest thing to deal with, as i cant snap it usually comes out in tears and frustration. Everything is a trigger and im extremely impatient. Ive stopped talking and being around mostly everybody because like i said everything seems to set me off. I feel like running off most of the time because when im running i dont think as much.

-- Thu May 22, 2014 9:41 am --

Not only that but i feel like im also easily influenced now so i try to avoid tv, music and reading as much as possible, the tv is hard as im living with almost 20 other people and tvs are always on, mostly crime and horror stuff. I cant stand the gunshots and murder and everything else. I try to sit outside as much as possible

I also feel like maybe whats going on is not real, like maybe ive been trapped in a nightmare for years and one day i will wake up to something better that none of this ever happened or was somebody elses life or some alternate reality.