Can I be depersonalized just because of thinking?

First of all-sorry for my English, this is not my nation language.
Please I need help from you.I am women, 24. I have never had problem with people, I had lots of friends, they liked me, I was just normal girl.

It is about 3 years since I have had mental problems....I am not sure if it can by classified as a problem.
I had little stress in the town when I studied, i commuted every day in big city, stresfull area.I didnt felt mentally well, I realised, this city is not what I want, but i didnt very deal wit it, I didnt think about it much.

Later I started to think questinons smtg. Who I am??Why I was born....why me??Since i started ask these questions I dont feel mentally well.I think it could be type of obsesive questions.I read symptoms of DP/DR, but i dont think it fits much to myself, but sometimes I ask myself: Didnt I have DP??I realy dont know. I feel sometimes scarry when I perceive my body, I look at my body and ask: Who fuc*ing Am I? I dont have derealization. I have never had out of body experience,fortunately. .But since I started to read and finding on websides info about mental ilnessess, i started to afraid of it, absolutely terrible for me by was when I found out,that exists something like Depersonalization. I think i maybe have fobia from DP, because I am very frightened that one day I would have out of body experience. My feeling are, that I cant still belive that I was born. I really dont have physical symptoms, I live in real reality, I feel right time,I remeber everything....Do you think Am I abillity to be depersonalized??I feel I have compulsive thought,I cant stop thinking about them, but I dont have obsessive compulsive disorder.I have never had panic attack,but sometimes I feel anxiety about my person or if I go out of my home alone. I think all these problems started when I started to read about mental illnesess on websites it destroyed me. I appreciate any advice. Thank you very much.

Hi there.

It sounds like you're in a lot of distress. Anxiety can cause a lot of symptoms. Do you have a counselor or therapist you could talk to about all of this? Maybe if you had someone to talk to you could get to the root of your rumination (thinking) and try to work with you to feel better?

I think we all have an ability to experience dissociation because all normal people do that to some degree. It's a disorder when it happens too much (depersonalization disorder) or when we think about it too much or fear it too much. I'm sorry you're anxious about this.

I hope you can find some help.

been where you are now since i was 6, i have been diagnosed with lots of disorders, but it dosent help, i stil dont know who and what i am, i totally can relate to your thinking, and if you would like to chat just ask k

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