Not sure what am I

I too dont know who I am.

iT FEELS LIKE something is stuck inside me which i need to dissolve for emotion to flow again. Im really self-conscious about this. Like a stone. I doesnt feel natural and its enegy costly to talk through this stone stuck inside. idk...

Also, It feels like im fooling myself to be on the same level as the others (the content and emotions of a convo)... the convo to be in my "interest" as well.... but If i am honest... i realize there is nothing of concern to me. I dont care... and have nothing to express.

All conversations seem superficial to me too, sometimes I ask to myself are we really expressing ourselves or is it just a game we all agreed on?