by firelamb67 » Tue Jul 29, 2014 3:40 am
When you have depersonalization disorder, it's my understanding that you know and understand reality and you are fully aware of what's going on. I have this disorder and it's weird for me.
I feel like I am just outside my body watching things happen. It makes me more vulnerable to the bad alter who does things she shouldn't be doing. I see it and I can't stop it.
My solution, which took a while to figure it, was to get the bad one under control. I asked for help and several of my alters are helping me out and it's working. She hasn't been able to do anything bad for over a year.
I tell her that I love her every day and thank her for her help. Think she's softening up a bit.
But yeah from personal experience it is easier.
DID, BPD, DP/DR
What lies behind us, and what lies before us, are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
-R.W. Emerson