No Emotions / Blank Mind / No thoughts

ShawTrav wrote:Sounds like dissociation to me. Perhaps caused by your depression, or anxiety, or can come from trauma. You mentally detach yourself for whatever reason from an painful experience and can't reconnect. I feel this way when I dissociate and sometimes it can last an entire day but usually not longer. I could only imagine a few months.

Depersonalization- is also what I feel from time to time. And it is almost like something is off with the world around you. Sometimes when I think about everything being off then evrything feels fake, like everyone is a robot, I am not real, and i'm in a "videogame" I think that is what Lucas was talking about.

One question. How do you have no thoughts? You thought about posting to this forum and typing your questions. So can you explain this to me? Not trying to be rude just really wondering what you mean by this.

Also don't know if I helped any, just what it sounds like to me. Oh and yes there is a cure, with therapy. Pills don't fix everything.

I think that my dissociation is mainly caused from me trying to numb positive feelings after my girlfriend broke up with me last year. It had impacted me a lot and I think that this is the cause of my dissociation/derealization. She was (and still is) one of the best people in my life and it had hurt me a lot. I've been going through this ever since around spring/early summer of 2014.

Sometimes I feel the same way as well. It's a weird feeling to me when I experience it. It's like going through your day normally but knowing that something, just something is off, but you don't know what it is. And like Lucas said, it does kind of feel like you're in a video game or as if you're in a coma and what you're all experiencing is just a dream.

I apologize for not wording the "no thoughts" part differently. It's... a really complicated feeling to describe. But the best way I can describe it is this way: picture a bear at a stream. Inside the stream, there is an abundance of fish swimming through the water. When the bear reaches his paw inside in an attempt to catch the fish, the fish notices the bear and swims as fast as it can to get away. When the bear tries to catch a different fish, he's able to get the fish and begins to eat it. Catching the fish and eating it is my metaphor (?) on getting a thought and mentally reading it in my head. The bear being unable to catch the quicker swimming fish is to represent me being unable to hold onto a thought. Right now, it's really the best way I can describe it as of now.

You did help, by the way. I'm just really reluctant about going to a therapist now.

BiB wrote:Its a defense from the too depressive and tragic toughts.

Hey. I don't know if you're talking to me, but I think so too.

Hi..
This started after trauma and phychotic break for me, anybody better here it been a year no relief now, everyday is terrible. I was on phyche drugs for a few years as well which probably damaged my brain, have the attention of a gold fish, music and gaming were my hobbies, now dont care for either or anything for the matter, can you recover from this? life has been completely destroyed no self just mind numbed blankness and severe memory loss. WTF is goin on i don't care if it ADHD, MDD, PTSD,PWD,Or damages from drugs or anything just how to regain myself and be me and be a soul again... ###$ each day is torture is this a sick joke or something? 19 and mentally ravaged and destroyed, no passions, no mind, no emotions ecept dread because of this.

Hi, I had my first psychotic episode ten years ago and I feel like I have never been the same again. I now live in a total state of blank mind and emptiness I don’t feel emotions and I cannot hold a conversation if it’s anything more than small talk. I see no point in existence and I just can’t find joy in anything that I do. I cannot live like this anymore and I have no connections with friends or family. Please someone help and point me in the right direction for advice. Does anyone else suffer from these symptoms?

It happened to me too. Horrible. One year I'm in this state. Nothingness. No emotions, no thoughts, Only empty head. I cannot connect to people anymore. And before i was so emotional, now i cant even cry. It happened after horrible thoughts of horror, and suddenly my mind just changed and this was even more horrible. i dont know what to do anymore. I just want to be me again. Pills dont help, talks dont help, couse nothing actually affect me. I can't even daydream, nor meditate. The worst thing is that music doesnnt help me and before music was all to me, it helped me so much, i was even a singer in two bands. Did you recover from this?? And how?

AquaMarinee wrote:It happened to me too. Horrible. One year I'm in this state. Nothingness. No emotions, no thoughts, Only empty head. I cannot connect to people anymore. And before i was so emotional, now i cant even cry. It happened after horrible thoughts of horror, and suddenly my mind just changed and this was even more horrible. i dont know what to do anymore. I just want to be me again. Pills dont help, talks dont help, couse nothing actually affect me. I can't even daydream, nor meditate. The worst thing is that music doesnnt help me and before music was all to me, it helped me so much, i was even a singer in two bands. Did you recover from this?? And how?

How did this start for you?

Im "glad" i guess because i actually found a post about this online. I would bet this is caused by trauma or extreme mental pain. For me it was loosing my dad at 8. I had no way to cope and talking about it made the pain to much for me so i said everything was ok to everyone and went on with this constent pain and thinking. Im very smart not to sound cocky but i think fast and i can manipulate people and things with extreme ease ever since i was young. That ability let me lie to everyone and be good at it and that built a habbit ruining relationships already with my mom at 0 she couldnt trust me. I tried killing myself alot *mod edit* and i was to weak to cut my wrist. Then it happened at 12 i felt the emptyness i learned to fake laughs so no one asked anything and faked everyhing so well. I started smoking weed at 12 and that introduced me to drugs. It helped Ig i liked it and it was easy to create bonds i met a great friend through them. I slowy started trying all of them 1 or 2 new drugs a time. Ive done all the pills you can think of ive done alot of coke ive done meth shrooms, lsd, and molly or x or mdma all the diffrent forms.. i really like phycadelics there great ive also done dxm and ketime they are dissaocitives and id say they dont really fee; to diffrent to being sober lol. I would always take so much of every drug i hsd no fear of my life i often could barley breathe and i was calm. I had a Gf that brought the feeling back i loved her so much truley beliving shes the one i still do. I moved back with my dad and now were not together and it was hard for a day but i just lost the emotion. I would think seeing my dad would help this numbness but no its done nothing. Not sure what to do i have no pourpose should i kill myself. Its not like im sad but ive lived here long enough and maybe there is a god. I often think about killing myself but no one would truli understand why and my moms loves me and my dad too and my ex they would be sad so ig ill keep going till there gone. Now as im typing this im thinking of my ex and i feel a slight longong for her i rember looking into her soft brown eyes and laughing i rember i felt peace and euphoria. the sex was great i felt bonded to her like i had a pourpose to live. This is my experices so far with drugs love and numbness.

Hi
I would love to know if today you feel better and what helped you
Thank you