Vague memories of depersonalization in childhood?

Hi guys

I have these strange memories of having depersonalization episodes as a child. I don't remember my age, the location, how many times it happened, or anything substancial. But I do remember having depersonalization sensations. I remember feeling like I was walking above the ground, moving but not feeling attached to my physical being, feeling weightless, I remember walking down the stairs feelings like I would just soar down like a ghost, I didn't feel like I would fall. I also remember being very afraid while it was happening, being relieved when it wasn't. I specifically remember looking at people while it was happening, expecting them to see that I was in this strange state, and being confused and afraid because they didn't.

Anyways, I just have all of these weird, fuzzy memories. It's so frustrating because I want to remember, and I just can't seem to. If anyone else is in a similar situation, or knows if this is common, I would love to hear from you.

Thanks for your time!

Yes, I had these a lot as a kid. It actually was comforting for me, it took me away from all the bad stuff in my life. Sadly I still get this, it is no longer comforting and has impaired my functioning. Generally depersonalization is a method of coping, so I'm gathering that something in your childhood environment was overwhelming, and this was a coping method that you used, and the reason they stopped is because either the stress was removed, (or more likely), you developed other coping skills so you no longer had to retreat to depersonalization.

I know some people refer to depersonalization experiences as being 'enlightening', although for me, they are pretty horrific, and I would say that not having them is a good thing. Understanding why they happened may be of interest, perhaps you could try therapy to develop greater insight into your past when these episodes were occuring?

Best wishes.

Thank you so much for your reply. I am so sorry for your struggle, I really hope things get better for you soon! Everything you've explained makes sense, I probably did use this to escape certain situations. I'm assuming I no longer suffer from depersonalization because I developed a PD, it keeps me somewhat stable. I want to try therapy, I would love to fix myself, however I know PDs are not very treatable. I think it's worth a try though! Thanks again for all your help, and good luck! <3