Help with DPD diagnosis

Hi everyone I'm new here. Firstly i want to say this is the first time I've registered on a forum for help. To cut the story short - I've been seeing a psychologist for just over a year and it doesn't seem to be helping me long term as I've become dependent on my therapist. She did a thorough test with me which scored high for Avoidant Dependent Personality Disorder. I was sent to a psychiatrist to try to get a diagnosis but I completely ruined it!

Because of the Avoidant part of me, I put Walls (barriers) up and portray myself to be "normal" as in looking like there's nothing wrong. When she asked me what my problems were I couldn't tell her anything. What I'm trying to ask is how I can show the psychiatrist how I really am and what I struggle with as I need sone form of diagnosis so I can understand myself more.

I don't know why I think the way I do or feel the way I do. I'm often confused and don't understand the thoughts behind my feelings. Any help would be extremely useful as I had a break down last July and I'm afraid it's going to happen again if I can't find the help I need.

Thanks for reading,

Nic x

Hi, Nic! How about writing everything down in a letter and handing it to them? You could explain why you chose writing in the letter and what happened (pretending that everything is normal) too.
You could keep it in your hand as you're about to see the psych, so that you won't get too anxious and not get it out of your pocket or bag when the time comes.