I think I might have DPD...

I was bullied for a LONG time... and that made my life a living hell... I'm only 15, nearly 16 years old in a couple of months, and I have been verbally abused... I didn't have any friends, and I was depressed... I made new friends last year during my freshman year... one in particular. I have gotten REALLY attached to her, and I don't know how she puts up with me...

Also, a year or so back, I got involved in the breakup of my two good friends (they were dating each other) and they stopped talking to me. that caused me to go into a REALLY bad depression. I cried myself to sleep, I felt as if I should die, I hated myself, and I kind of avoided my other friends who knew about the incident. But I also have other friends that I am really attached to. I hate being alone, and I feel like when I am alone, I am never going to have a friend and that no one cares about me. Would you consider this DPD?

(I do realize there is ALOT wrong with me~ Soooo many things going on with me and messing me up mentally!~ xD)

Hi, ScreamoChick! You could have DPD traits. Are you really scared of being abandoned and a bit clingy? Do you put the feelings of others above your own needs, even if you can sort of see that you shouldn't?
Maybe you didn't get enough love as a kid and now you're trying to find it.

I am a bit clingy. I really don't like being alone at all... except when I'm mad, I like to be alone... But other than that, I don't like being alone at all. Like I said, I am kind of clingy to my good friend, and she has even mentioned it to me.
I was bullied as a kid, but my parents loved me. Even if I was getting in trouble all of the time. And my sister loves me too. It's just that, as a kid, not having any friends definitely hit me. HARD.

Oh, yah, that must have been hard. I was bullied too, when I was about 12-14 and it was difficult for me to connect with new classmates, I didn't make friends for the first two years of high school and even after that it was weird. I too have a tendency toward being clingy, lol. Finding a place where you can feel like you belong, a little community or even a group of friends where you have a role, could probably help. Do you have hobbies or passions?

Well, I am in an anime group. I love anime. I also LOVE to sing, so when a poetry Jam comes up, they let me sing because it's open mic. I have one tomorrow.
I also LOVE screamo music, rock music, and pop music. I <3 Lady Gaga, Asking Alexandria, Paramore, Big Time Rush, Victoria Justice, and others. I also usually sing opening and closing songs from anime I like. Such as Vampire Knight, Negima!, Black Butler, Basilisk, Soul Eater, and others. I know you probably haven't heard of these shows before... xD lol

Oh I used to like Sailor Moon when I was a kid and I was once a Bleach enthusiast I'm afraid I haven't heard of your shows, though, what are they like?

Maybe you could study music or drawing and make a career out of it.

I was going to achieve Psychology when I graduate in 2013... And I was also going to go into digital art. xD

Do you still feel the same way? You should definitely give it a shot

Hello,
I think I have dependent personality disorder? Maybe a mild form? This is because I've been in love with abusers twice in my life. They are they ones I love the most, deeply. He says he can't let me go.. but I don't understand why he wants to hurt me. I don't know if I have dependant personality disorder or not. But, I think he has a personality disorder. I'm not sure which one. That's why I joined this site. To figure out what is going on with my relationship, and why he abuses me and I just want to fix him so much.