by WelcomeToMe » Wed Mar 31, 2021 6:23 pm
Hello all. As I have mentioned in another thread, I am new to the board. I have been diagnosed with several things such as Borderline Personality Disorder, Major Depression, GAD, Panic Disorder, Bipolar, and PTSD. I am also suspecting that I have Dependant Personality Disorder. Because I struggle with taking care of basic needs of my own. And I struggle with being alone. Of the basic tasks I struggle to handle, there are several I can do with no problem, and several that icant. I will get into those specifically, later on. But first I will mention that the worst of the one I cant, is cooking for myself, or making sure I have something to eat. The strange part about this, is that I know how to prepare food for myself, but I do not feel satisfied until other people prepare food for me. This is really affecting my life, as I feel terrified of the idea of being in charge of my own meals. This is getting in the way of being able to live independently on my own. I live with other people, and when I am left at home on my own, and faced with the idea of feeding myself, I deliberately go to someone elseshouse, where someone else does the meal prep. This has also interfered with me working or going to school, because I am afraid of someone else not being there to visit make sure I have breakfast before I go. And dinner when I get home.the best I can do is buy myself takeout when I am out during the day. I am dependent in other ways as well, this is just the worst. I am wondering if anyone else can relate. As i said before I was officially diagnosed with BPD. But this sounds like possible DPD as well. Any help is appreciated.