learning to cope with dpd

hi my name is david and im from leicester england. unknown to me ive been suffering with dpd since i was a kid and what ive been through is quite a story. i dont want to go into massive detail at the moment but what i will say is since i was 11 ive been gambling to escape all my problems and when i lost at gambling i would create this massive crises to force people to care for me and take responsability for my actions. in 2009 i created a massive crises after gambling all my money away and ended up in prison. i simply couldnt handle prison and asked the judge to get a psychiatric report done befor sentencing and when the doctor came i told him all sorts of things like i was jesus,hearing voice,the devil was trying to kill me,people could read my mind practically anything to go to hspital because i could cope living in the community.i was that determended i told him anything and he diagnosed me with paranoid schizophenia and i went to a medium secure forensic psychiatric hospital where the dosed me up on really strong antipsycotics because of what i told them and was put on a hospital order with restrictions 37/41 just because i couldnt cope with my dpd. there i stayed for 2 years now im in a low secure facility and i came clean to them so they took me off all medication and am now reciving treatment for past traumers in my life. the treatment is called e.m.d.r which ive been doing for the last 12 weeks. they are on about letting me out after 3 and a half years and basically shitting myself because of my disorder which they told me i have and they are fully aware of all my problems. basically for 32 years ive been through hell and back and things arnt looking any better. there are so many things i want to get off my chest because i feel alone with only professionals to talk to. i just want to talk to people with similar problems to gain some insight. david

I think I saw you post on out of the fog forums. Unfortunately the dependent forum is pretty dead. There are different types of dependents. Take me for instance, according to millon I would be:

THE INEFFECTUAL DEPENDENT

The ineffectual dependent represents a combination of the dependent and schizoid patterns. Both exhibit a general lack of vitality, low energy level, fatigability, and weakness in expressiveness and spontaneity. Schizoids usually possess an anhedonic temperament, meaning that they are unable to experience pleasurable emotions in great depth. Moreover, they shun social relationships, including being part of a family, and almost always choose solitary activities. The ineffectual dependent, however, is more able to empathize and understand the basic emotions of others. Additionally, the thought processes of schizoids often seem unfocused, tangential, or even absent, especially concerning human relationships. While interpersonal subtleties escape the understanding of most schizoids, they are understood by most ineffectual dependents, who do not shun close personal relationships. Like the immature dependent, the ineffectual variety seeks an untroubled life completely free of responsibility, though mainly because of a lack of drive rather than a childish nature. Through their schizoid characteristics, they often simply tune out life’s demands. Not wanting to deal with reality, they often appear to sleepwalk through life, half disengaged and half dependent. They typically do not want to engage in anything or think too deeply, so they often exhibit a certain fatalism that allows them to ignore difficulties. They have a belief that nothing ever changes on the basis of human efforts, and they have neither the drive nor the desire to act on their own behalf.

So I am a schizoid-dependent hybrid. The schizoid part of me keeps most of the negative aspects of dpd in check. You might try the personality disorder NOS forum. NOS is what you are assigned when you don't exactly fit into a single PD.

You might also try the gambling addiction forum on this site. It is under ADDICTIONS/Spending forum/gambling addiction subforum.